If you're thinking about Suicide..... Read This First

Is it really THAT bad?

We've ALL been there.

We've all had the thought running through out minds.

Being sick of it all, down, depressed, hating life, hating our own life, feeling so miserable that you just want to end it all.

I've been there myself a few times. But everyone is different.

The last thing you want to hear from someone is that "everything will be fine"

You are in the deepest darkest place right now and when they say that it means nothing.

Some may even get angry or upset with you. That is normal too. They aren't in the place where you are. They are afraid for you, for them. They just don't understand.

When I was younger death was something I just never had to deal with but as I grow older is seems more and more common. Accidents, Health, Age, and unfortunately suicide.

I may have been one of those who would have gotten angry and said it is a cop out. This will get better. I still feel that way. Because I know things DO get better. But I found this website and it opened my eyes a bit as to possibly where and why these people do what they do. And even though we may all have, at one point, had those suicidal feelings we still had a glimmer of hope somewhere in us to continue on and live.

I couldn't imagine feeling so desperate and hopeless that I didn't even have that sliver of a feeling of wanting to live. Having that question of do I really want to end my life? is it really that bad? Snuffed right out of me.

The reason why I have written this blog is because one of the pressmen from where I work killed himself Saturday. I didn't know him well at all. He had only been working there a few months. He was young, good looking, seemed to be nice. But that shows you that anyone can have these thoughts.


Please check out this site out

http://www.metanoia.org/suicide/


I hope this blog finds people really need it or could help someone who might need it. That alone makes me feel better.

Shhhh Im Hunting Rabbit!

I've had my two dwarf bunnies for about two months now.

So far they share the same cage. I'm not sure if they are the same sex or not. I've tried looking and I'm just not sure. I'm afraid I'll hurt them plus they get very impatient with me when I try to figure out what they are.

I don't blame them, I mean after all, I wouldn't like someone poking and prodding and starring at my genital area trying to figure out just what the hell I am.

Anyway, I either have to get another cage so they each have their own to give them more room or I need to buy or build another bigger cage for them to share. In the mean time every night when I get home from work I let them run about the house for a while to give them exercise and add a little excitement to their day. They do tend to get bored sitting in a cage all day (wouldn't you?)

They just love it. They bounce around chasing each other or the cat. They explore everything. I shut off certain rooms so I can keep an eye on them from time to time, making sure they don't get into trouble.

Normally their cage sits out in my kitchen on my dryer. But last night I decided to bring it in the other room and place it on the floor. I opened the door and let then out. Normally I put their harness and lead on. I do this because it is easier for me to catch them when I am ready to place them back in their cage. But again, tonight I just decided to let them roam free without any harness.

As I watched them first they hopped out. Jitter bug hopped back in the cage sniffed around then hopped back out. It was interesting because for a while they would hop around then go back to the cage. They were out for quiet some time last night. I sat down in front of the cage and just waited for them to come by. Jitterbug was the easier to catch. I would think he wouldn't be because when I first brought them home he was all antsy and jittery thus the name Jitterbug.

Now Velveteen was a tad bit more challenging. I had some of their timothy hay in a shoe box and when I shook the box it seemed to catch their attention and curiosity, which brought them over to see what I had to feed them. I had to be quicker with Velveteen but after a couple attempts I managed to get him back into the cage.

I decided to keep the cage on the floor for now.

The rest of the evening went quietly until 2am.

I suddenly heard this ruckus. Sounded like a chase of some sort. Lots of running back and fourth. At first I thought Salem (my cat) was playing. Then I thought maybe it had caught something. But what??? Then it dawned on me..... OH SHIT!!!

What if ........

I jumped up quickly and turned on the light. There was only one rabbit in the cage!

The door was still closed and hinged so how the hell did it get out!

For a brief second I had the stupidest thought run through my head (Hey I was half asleep) But I had a quick thought of Oh No Jitterbug ate Velveteen! LOL

It passed quickly.

Velveteen so no where to be seen. But Salem looked like she had just chased something across the room. I have this empty chest box sitting by the window. It has no back to it so I check inside and there was Velveteen.

I grabbed him and boy was he feisty!

I sat down in front of the cage to try and figure out how he managed to get out. They only way I could think was that he pushed the feeder out enough for him to slip out.

He is smaller than Jitterbug so it could be possible and since the cage was on the floor he was more daring.

Needless to say I put the cage back on top of my dryer.

quiet the eventful evening!

My Destiny Number is 7

I found this kind of cool and interesting so I am posting it for all of you to checkout.

The Numerology of Names
By: Amanda Coggin

There is a reason why you have your name and it’s not because it sounded classy in the gossip pages of the New York Post (which is where my mom found my name). Your birth name paired with numerology can enlighten you on what motivates you in life, what warrants your true expression, and the lasting impression you leave on others when you exit a room.

It started with Pythagoras, the Greek mathematician who invented the a2 + b2 = c2 Pythagorean Theorem, the only equation I remember from eleventh grade geometry. In 6th century BCE, Pythagoras combined mysticism with mathematics to construct a quotient about the future of one’s life. He coined it Pythagorean numerology and used numbers assigned to the letters in one’s full name (as well as using the numbers in one’s date of birth). The numerology determined what innate abilities one was given at birth to determine what might happen late in life, and it has become the source for modern numerology today.

How Numerology Works
When working with a name, numbers have corresponding letters. The numbers are added up and broken down into single digits in order to give you your final Destiny Number.


The Number Assignments
1= A, J, S
2= B, K, T
3= C, L, U
4= D, M, V
5= E, N, W
6= F, O, X
7= G, P, Y
8= H, Q, Z
9= I, R


How to Find Your Destiny Number

Write down your full name (first, middle, and last). This is the name you were given at birth—not your married name, etc.
Using the table above, write down the number matched to each letter in each name (i.e. AMANDA = 1, 4, 1, 5, 4, 1).

Add the numbers together for each name (i.e. 1+4+1+5+4+1= 16).
You will most likely get a double digit for each name; break down each double digit number you get by adding the first and second digit to get one number (i.e. from the 16 above, add together 1+6 to get 7, which is the number for my first name).


Add up the final numbers you get from each name (i.e. my middle name number is 8 and my last name number is 10, so 7+8+10 = 25).
Once again, break down any double-digit numbers into one digit to get your final Destiny Number (i.e. from the 25 above, add together 2+5 to get 7, which is my final Destiny Number).

In numerology, the basic vibrations are numbers 1 through 9, but the numbers 11 and 22 are master numbers and should not be reduced to a single digit since these are master vibrations.

There are plenty of books and Web sites that will give you a thorough analysis of your Destiny Number, but here’s a basic rundown on what your Destiny Number means for you:

1 is determined, autonomous, and self-reliant

2 is loyal, tactful, and analytical

3 is passionate, positive, and fun-loving

4 is sensible, traditional, and serious

5 is bold, temperamental, and sensual

6 is responsible, cautious, and domestic

7 is spiritual, unconventional, and somewhat reclusive

8 is money-oriented, assured, and authoritative

9 is versatile, compassionate, and worldly

11 is enlightened, deep, and high-strung

22 is ambitious, a global planner, and motivated



I looked further into my 7, and found this interpretation through About Numerology.

“A Destiny number of 7 means you will find fulfillment through teaching others. By pursuing an ongoing quest for knowledge and then sharing your findings with your fellow man ... be it through teaching, writing or some other means ... you will bring joy into your own life. By following your destiny, your life should be an interesting life, one full of the exploration of science, mysteries, the occult, or other fascinating fields.”