Friday

Here it is another Friday. Another week done and over with. Sunday will be the first of June and half the year is about over with.

Where is the time going. Seems the older I get the faster time flies!

I start back at the gym on Monday. I took the month of May off because I had so much to do around the part and house I just didn't have enough time. I've done pretty well actually. I seemed to have lost weight the first two weeks of NOT working out and now have just maintained at that weight.

I'm looking forward to starting in again. This time I think I will do more cardio with possibly one or two days of weight training. I think maybe that was what was making me feel all bulky and bloated.

I still have tons of planting and gardening, and home improvements to get done but I have to figure out some kind of schedule that can include both exercising and getting what needs to get done in.

These gas prices are putting a damper on what it is I can do and when. I really have to watch how and where I spend my money or where I go. Yesterday morning it was $4.09. on my way home for work last night it is now up to $4.11. I'm afraid of what it will be tonight when I head home from work.

Just going back and forth to work is starting to take a toll and add up. I just can't afford to go anywhere. II stay home and work out in the yard or around the house.

Purgatory

I feel like I'm caught in purgatory. I' floundering in limbo here.

I've got so many things going on through my head right now I just don't know how I am feeling.

I know there is definite internal conflicts going on with my head and my heart.

Being the logical and rational person I am I always have to think situations through.

What may be right for me might not be the road I want to head down at this moment.

I know what it is I want and kind of what I am looking for. I know what makes me happy and what makes me unhappy. This is the only thing right now in my life I know for sure.

What path I will take is still uncertain.

What's Been Going On??

Hello Everyone!

I know, I'm sorry I haven't written much.

I have been keeping busy with work. There is so much I want and need to get done around my apartment.

I took the month of May off from working out so I could get a good start on most of it but there just isn't enough time in a day to do this. I will be starting back to the gym after work next week.

The majority of the time was spend working on the next door apartment but since that is finished I can now concentrate on what I need to get done.

I'm also trying to make things easier on my parents.

So this weekend I trimmed the grass and mowed the lawn. In between I laid the rest of the floor tile in next door apartment and helped lay out and cut the rugs for the back two bedrooms.

I started to weed one of three flower beds. I also laid down weed blocking screening. But there is so much that I couldn't finish all of it. I finally bought some mulch to lay down on it. Which I wont be able to get to til Thursday (weather permitting).

I still have to pick up my motorcycle from the shop. Finish the kitchen floor tiles in my place and start the floor tiles by the door when you first walk in my apartment.

But I like feeling busy. It helps me sleep better nights.

I am actually happy now. I have been enjoying what I'm doing am look forward to hanging out on occasion with my friends on the porch or back yard by the fire.

Who Is Your Celebrity Twin?

Took another quiz. This time it was to see who my celebrity twin would be.

This is what the outcome was.....

Reese's production company is named Type A, and like her, you are both a perfectionist and a planner. You're grounded, successful and when you decided to do something, you always give 110 percent. You've always been the nice, cute girl -- the high school cheerleader, prom queen... You value family above all else and realize the importance of raising your children in a down-to-earth environment. Reese is the first to tell you she's from the South and loves bluegrass music and collecting antique lace. You, too, are not afraid to show your traditional side. You're also fiercely protective and loyal.

Which Sex and the City Lady Are You?

So I took this quiz that I came across on the net....Which Sex and the City Lady Are You?

This is who I identify with:

You're Carrie

Like confident Carrie, the lovelorn sex columnist, you're curious and perceptive, always seeking answers and never satisfied with the superficial. Being Carrie lends itself to indecision and an avoidance of tough issues, like with Carrie and her on-again, off-again attachment to Mr. Big. Forward-thinking, incredibly intelligent and witty, you just exude quirky charm. You'd be utterly bored by someone who's just a pretty face or hot body -- though you don't mind looking and flirting! You're more turned on by an equally smart and funny mate, someone who challenges your mind and makes you laugh. You love to talk, so you need a good listener who's open to playful and eccentric ideas about love and lovemaking. Of course, you're also the most fashion-foward lady in the city!

Sick Mother F@ckers!!!

This world has some sick fuckers in it.

What in heaven or earth makes someone want to molest children?

How do they even get a thrill or get turned on by that?

How sick can a person be to even think about doing that in the first place?

I know it happens. I've heard it happening on the news, in the papers but I would have never thought it would hit as close to home as it has today.

I have never been so filled with rage and sadness as I have been today.

I am not mentioning names to protect the innocent people involved and unfortunately if I do name the Guilty Sick Son of a Bitch that has done such an unthinkable act it would also hurt those I am trying to protect.

But let me tell you this....he better hope that he goes to prison an for a long long time because if I see him he will wish he was in prison. He will wish he never got involved with my friend and taken advantage of her daughter because the fucker will have his balls and dick cut off and shoved down his throat.

I have connections and know people who have connections so even being sent away his life will end as he knows it.

Whatever It Takes

I was listening to the following song and it hit home.


I want someone who is willing to do whatever it takes to be with me. It's funny how songs just seem to find you when you need them.


Whatever It Takes - by Life House

A strangled smile fell from your face
It kills me that I hurt you this way
The worst part is that I didn't even know
Now there's a million reasons for you to go
But if you can find a reason to stay

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know that I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
Believe that I can change
I'll keep us together whatever it takes

She said "If we're gonna make this work
You gotta let me inside even though it hurts
Don't hide the broken parts that I need to see"
She said "Like it or not it's the way it's gotta be
You gotta love yourself if you can ever love me"

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know that I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
And give me a break
I'll keep us together, I know you deserve much better

But remember the time I told you the way that I felt
That I'd be lost without you and never find myself
Let's hold onto each other above everything else
Start over, start over

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
and believe that I can change
I'll keep us together whatever it takes