My Best Girl Tammy and her two girls were suppose to be moving in to the apartment next to me that my good friend Danny just moved out of.
Unfortunately, he left it in a bit of shambles. She was expecting to start moving this Thursday, but now finding out that the apartment is in unmovable conditions she has to wait.
Under the wire, we need to get the place in top shape.
I guess I know what I will be doing this weekend! Painting, cleaning, scrubbing etc.
Wish Us Luck!
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
Sunday, April 27, 2008
Heart Broken
It's been a rough weekend.
First, out of the blue I came down with some kind of bug or flu.
I was all achy, feverish, cold chills and I was whiny.
On top of that Mike and I got into HUGE fight. Actually we haven't fought for a while but this one was a biggy.
He has been telling me that he would come down to my house to spend the night. There has been one reason that seems to pop up on Friday for why he can't.
I don't feel it is too much to ask to want to spend some quality alone time with my BF.
I'm not asking him to spend the week, to move in or even spend the whole weekend. But for one night out of a week to come and be with me for a change. I feel that is a reasonable request.
I've been there for him, supported him, treated him really good. Just about every weekend I always went up to his house. Hung our with him, went where he wanted to go.
I am always the one who ends up conforming to what he wants. He doesn't want to come to my home but I can come up there. I'm more than willing to compromise but I always end up being the one to hold up my end of the deal when he falls through with his end. This isn't fair to me.
Then he tried to bring the argument of his friends into it. But lets look at it this way. I get to see him possible one maybe two days out of the week. He has the rest of the week to talk, visit, see, hang out with any and all of his friends which many times he does. Do he cant take at least one day out of his precious time to spend with the person he claims to love? As for me, because I end up going to his place for the weekend I lose out on seeing, talking or hanging out with my friends.
It just seems like in order for me to see Mike or spend any time with him I must do it under his terms. Yet again, what he wants. He refuses to see where I am coming from or to understand how I may be feeling.
Like a child throwing a tantrum. As long as I give in to him then he is fine and everything is alright.
I have so much to do at my place. He just doesn't understand. I don't have time to work on it during the week. If I spend all weekend at his place I get nothing done.
He doesn't seem to be the same guy I feel in love with. I'm not sure what happened to him or who has influenced him but he is not the same. He use to be more loving, caring, wanting to hug me, kiss me, be with me.
Yes, it has been a while since we've seen each other. But that is all the more reason to be that much more affectionate.
I don't know. I'm not sure where we stand or how we stand with each other. If we can fix this or work this out.
All I know is that it does take two to make a relationship work. It's not fair if one gets their way and gets what they want when the other doesn't.
First, out of the blue I came down with some kind of bug or flu.
I was all achy, feverish, cold chills and I was whiny.
On top of that Mike and I got into HUGE fight. Actually we haven't fought for a while but this one was a biggy.
He has been telling me that he would come down to my house to spend the night. There has been one reason that seems to pop up on Friday for why he can't.
I don't feel it is too much to ask to want to spend some quality alone time with my BF.
I'm not asking him to spend the week, to move in or even spend the whole weekend. But for one night out of a week to come and be with me for a change. I feel that is a reasonable request.
I've been there for him, supported him, treated him really good. Just about every weekend I always went up to his house. Hung our with him, went where he wanted to go.
I am always the one who ends up conforming to what he wants. He doesn't want to come to my home but I can come up there. I'm more than willing to compromise but I always end up being the one to hold up my end of the deal when he falls through with his end. This isn't fair to me.
Then he tried to bring the argument of his friends into it. But lets look at it this way. I get to see him possible one maybe two days out of the week. He has the rest of the week to talk, visit, see, hang out with any and all of his friends which many times he does. Do he cant take at least one day out of his precious time to spend with the person he claims to love? As for me, because I end up going to his place for the weekend I lose out on seeing, talking or hanging out with my friends.
It just seems like in order for me to see Mike or spend any time with him I must do it under his terms. Yet again, what he wants. He refuses to see where I am coming from or to understand how I may be feeling.
Like a child throwing a tantrum. As long as I give in to him then he is fine and everything is alright.
I have so much to do at my place. He just doesn't understand. I don't have time to work on it during the week. If I spend all weekend at his place I get nothing done.
He doesn't seem to be the same guy I feel in love with. I'm not sure what happened to him or who has influenced him but he is not the same. He use to be more loving, caring, wanting to hug me, kiss me, be with me.
Yes, it has been a while since we've seen each other. But that is all the more reason to be that much more affectionate.
I don't know. I'm not sure where we stand or how we stand with each other. If we can fix this or work this out.
All I know is that it does take two to make a relationship work. It's not fair if one gets their way and gets what they want when the other doesn't.
Thursday, April 24, 2008
Old Friends
I know how busy life can get.
I know how easy it is to lose touch with friends and loved ones.
But just because we don't hear from them or talk to them doesn't mean we have forgotten or stopped loving them.
So with that said I wanted to give a shout out and say happy birthday to someone who is near and dear to my heart, but who I haven't heard from in a long time but is not forgotten.
His Birthday is this Saturday April 26th.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY Beau
Wherever you maybe, whatever you are doing. I hope you are happy and that you are getting the most out of life.
And that occasionally I may still cross your mind. LOL
I know how easy it is to lose touch with friends and loved ones.
But just because we don't hear from them or talk to them doesn't mean we have forgotten or stopped loving them.
So with that said I wanted to give a shout out and say happy birthday to someone who is near and dear to my heart, but who I haven't heard from in a long time but is not forgotten.
His Birthday is this Saturday April 26th.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY Beau
Wherever you maybe, whatever you are doing. I hope you are happy and that you are getting the most out of life.
And that occasionally I may still cross your mind. LOL
Sunday, April 20, 2008
Progress
Yesterday, Saturday April 19th, was the end of my third week since I started working out.
I am happy to report that I do see some progress.
When I first started I could barley do 5 minutes on the stair climber. I tried the elliptical machine and realized it was harder than it looked and only was able to stay on it for 3 minutes. I was able to walk on the treadmill for 30 minutes but I was breathing heavy and I was extremely tired.
Saturdays is my two hour work out day. I work one hour on cardio and one hour on weight training.
This Saturday I realized how far I've come in such a short amount of time. I was able to work out for 25 minutes on the stair climber. I would have done 30 minutes but for some reason the whole machine shut off. At least all my totals of how long, how many floors, how many calories burned etc shut off.
I hadn't tried the elliptical machine since day one when I started, so I thought I'd give it a try and see if I could at least make 5 minutes. To my surprise I was able to stay on it for 15 minutes. (This machine is still more difficult) but I felt really good after.
I've noticed when I work out on the treadmill I am able to walk farther faster in 30 minutes than I have been in the previous weeks. I use to be able to make one mile in about the 30 minutes. Now I can make one mile in 20 minutes and keep on walking!!!
I'm trying to to get too wrapped up in the "number" or weight progress. For one it can get discouraging. plus your weight constantly fluctuates with new muscle mass.
Plus I am also trying to stay patient. I like immediate results, no matter what it is I do. I want results now! I know that isn't possible and isn't healthy in the first place. It will take time and patients and a lot of hard work.
Well I'm already putting in the hard work.
I am happy to report that I do see some progress.
When I first started I could barley do 5 minutes on the stair climber. I tried the elliptical machine and realized it was harder than it looked and only was able to stay on it for 3 minutes. I was able to walk on the treadmill for 30 minutes but I was breathing heavy and I was extremely tired.
Saturdays is my two hour work out day. I work one hour on cardio and one hour on weight training.
This Saturday I realized how far I've come in such a short amount of time. I was able to work out for 25 minutes on the stair climber. I would have done 30 minutes but for some reason the whole machine shut off. At least all my totals of how long, how many floors, how many calories burned etc shut off.
I hadn't tried the elliptical machine since day one when I started, so I thought I'd give it a try and see if I could at least make 5 minutes. To my surprise I was able to stay on it for 15 minutes. (This machine is still more difficult) but I felt really good after.
I've noticed when I work out on the treadmill I am able to walk farther faster in 30 minutes than I have been in the previous weeks. I use to be able to make one mile in about the 30 minutes. Now I can make one mile in 20 minutes and keep on walking!!!
I'm trying to to get too wrapped up in the "number" or weight progress. For one it can get discouraging. plus your weight constantly fluctuates with new muscle mass.
Plus I am also trying to stay patient. I like immediate results, no matter what it is I do. I want results now! I know that isn't possible and isn't healthy in the first place. It will take time and patients and a lot of hard work.
Well I'm already putting in the hard work.
Thursday, April 17, 2008
What Kind of Flirt Are You?
I took this quiz to find out what kind of flirt I am and this is what I found out.
Suave Flirt
Being your suave self can get you the results you desire, but make sure you don't ruin your own game by being too smooth. Your subtle manner could point to signs of an inner need for caution and, perhaps, your reluctance to get too deeply involved emotionally.Just remember this: A woman's sense of worth should not come from a man's attention. It can make you feel great to flirt and get the kind of response you want from a man, but don't allow these small blips of adoration block your willingness to have a relationship.
Suave Flirt
Being your suave self can get you the results you desire, but make sure you don't ruin your own game by being too smooth. Your subtle manner could point to signs of an inner need for caution and, perhaps, your reluctance to get too deeply involved emotionally.Just remember this: A woman's sense of worth should not come from a man's attention. It can make you feel great to flirt and get the kind of response you want from a man, but don't allow these small blips of adoration block your willingness to have a relationship.
Jef - Fa Fa DUNHAM dot com
This Sunday I am going to see one of my favorite comedians, Jeff Dunham at the Utica Stanley Theater.
He is a ventriloquist and he cracks me up. The first time I watched his show I was (ROTFLMAO) rolling on the floor laughing my ass off.
He has a couple of videos out and he is on Comedy Central.
I left you a few clips to check him out in case you haven't heard or seen him.
Stop by his web site if you like. www.jeffdunham.com
He is a ventriloquist and he cracks me up. The first time I watched his show I was (ROTFLMAO) rolling on the floor laughing my ass off.
He has a couple of videos out and he is on Comedy Central.
I left you a few clips to check him out in case you haven't heard or seen him.
Stop by his web site if you like. www.jeffdunham.com
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
TOFU
So anyone who has been reading my blogs or who knows me, knows I've been making changes in my life. The main one for now is working out and becoming healthier.
I decided I was going to try something new, Tofu.
I don't think that I have ever actually tried tofu but for some reason I believe I do not like it.
My mom has used tofu in here Korean soups and some stir fry but I have always managed to advert eating it.
So I kinda wonder why I believe I do not like tofu when I have not, knowingly, tried it.
Last night I tried it for my first time. I made a stir fry of broccoli florets, shredded carrots, portobello mushrooms, celery, and tofu.
I wasn't over joyed with it but it was eatable. There really isn't much of a taste to the tofu and the consistency is kinda like scrambled eggs.
This morning I thought I would try it again. I sauteed some zucchini, green peppers, tofu and sausage. This was a little more palatable, more so when I ate it with a piece of sausage.
I will finish off this block of tofu but more than likely will not buy it again unless I can find a recipe or use of it that I like.
I do have a couple of more ideas to try over the next few days. Since it has a resemblance to scrambled eggs I think I will try to make a sausage and Tofu sandwich. Then I think I will try it in a soup based dish. I now tofu is suppose to take the place of meat products but I can't help it. I'm a carnivore!
I'll let you know how it turns out.
I decided I was going to try something new, Tofu.
I don't think that I have ever actually tried tofu but for some reason I believe I do not like it.
My mom has used tofu in here Korean soups and some stir fry but I have always managed to advert eating it.
So I kinda wonder why I believe I do not like tofu when I have not, knowingly, tried it.
Last night I tried it for my first time. I made a stir fry of broccoli florets, shredded carrots, portobello mushrooms, celery, and tofu.
I wasn't over joyed with it but it was eatable. There really isn't much of a taste to the tofu and the consistency is kinda like scrambled eggs.
This morning I thought I would try it again. I sauteed some zucchini, green peppers, tofu and sausage. This was a little more palatable, more so when I ate it with a piece of sausage.
I will finish off this block of tofu but more than likely will not buy it again unless I can find a recipe or use of it that I like.
I do have a couple of more ideas to try over the next few days. Since it has a resemblance to scrambled eggs I think I will try to make a sausage and Tofu sandwich. Then I think I will try it in a soup based dish. I now tofu is suppose to take the place of meat products but I can't help it. I'm a carnivore!
I'll let you know how it turns out.
Friday, April 11, 2008
When It Rains, It Pours
My inspection sticker on my car was due in January. Yes, I know, here it is April and so far I've been lucky enough not to get caught!
But with the warmer weather coming I know the cops will be out with road blocks so it's time to bite the bullet and get my car checked out.
It first started out that I needed tie rods for both sides before they could pass my inspection.
They also mention that I should have an alignment when I get the tie rods done.
Since they were already going to have my car up they might as well do an oil change.
They got back to me with a price for the tie rods. ($20 each)
Not bad. I was feeling pretty good about that until they went to get the alignment done.
My lower wheel arms have to be replaced before they can pass me for inspection.
What's this going to cost me???
Let's tally this up now......
Tie Rods - - - $20 each = $40
Alignment - - - - - - - - - = $90
Inspection - - - - - - - - = $21
Oil Change - - - - - - - - = $21.55
Lower wheel Arms
One Side is $200
Other Side is $300 - - - = $500
Sub Total - - - - - - - - - = $672.55
This isn't including labor. Labor is $50 an hour. so lets figure another $150 to that subtotal for a GRAND TOTAL OF approx $822.55 plus tax
I just want to cry!
But with the warmer weather coming I know the cops will be out with road blocks so it's time to bite the bullet and get my car checked out.
It first started out that I needed tie rods for both sides before they could pass my inspection.
They also mention that I should have an alignment when I get the tie rods done.
Since they were already going to have my car up they might as well do an oil change.
They got back to me with a price for the tie rods. ($20 each)
Not bad. I was feeling pretty good about that until they went to get the alignment done.
My lower wheel arms have to be replaced before they can pass me for inspection.
What's this going to cost me???
Let's tally this up now......
Tie Rods - - - $20 each = $40
Alignment - - - - - - - - - = $90
Inspection - - - - - - - - = $21
Oil Change - - - - - - - - = $21.55
Lower wheel Arms
One Side is $200
Other Side is $300 - - - = $500
Sub Total - - - - - - - - - = $672.55
This isn't including labor. Labor is $50 an hour. so lets figure another $150 to that subtotal for a GRAND TOTAL OF approx $822.55 plus tax
I just want to cry!
Sunday, April 06, 2008
My First Week
I know I've been talking about making some changes in my life but up until now I just couldn't seem to get my ass in gear to start.
But I've made the first few steps and I'm on a roll now.
You all know I've joined the fitness center and have dedicated myself to working out everyday after work.
Saturday I went and worked out for two hours. I did the whole workout for both cardio and weight training. I felt so alive, so good, so tired! (but in a good way)
This has really helped me put things in perspective. I don't seem as stresses as I have been and so far my moods seems to be a lot better. I'm still working on the sleeping through the night. I am still tired but in an exhausted kind of way from the work out so that is also a good thing.
Why am I doing all this?
Well that is very simple. To get into shape, be more healthier, look better and most of all to feel better about myself.
I need to start feeling good about myself. I've faced it, it's been a long time since I've been happy and felt good about me. I know my life and my situation hasn't helped in that matter.
I have to start somewhere. I've lost myself. Who I am and what I like to do.
It's simple yet complicated. But that is for another blog.
I've come to realize that true happiness has to start with me. I have to be the one to make me happy. I can't or shouldn't depend on someone else to be the reason I am happy. That only puts me in a more vulnerable and dangerous position.
Once I am happy with myself, for myself and about myself that all else will fall into place.
This year is the year of life changes. Some may be good, some may be bad, some happy and some sad. But in the end it is what is right for me and what is going to make me a happier person.
But I've made the first few steps and I'm on a roll now.
You all know I've joined the fitness center and have dedicated myself to working out everyday after work.
Saturday I went and worked out for two hours. I did the whole workout for both cardio and weight training. I felt so alive, so good, so tired! (but in a good way)
This has really helped me put things in perspective. I don't seem as stresses as I have been and so far my moods seems to be a lot better. I'm still working on the sleeping through the night. I am still tired but in an exhausted kind of way from the work out so that is also a good thing.
Why am I doing all this?
Well that is very simple. To get into shape, be more healthier, look better and most of all to feel better about myself.
I need to start feeling good about myself. I've faced it, it's been a long time since I've been happy and felt good about me. I know my life and my situation hasn't helped in that matter.
I have to start somewhere. I've lost myself. Who I am and what I like to do.
It's simple yet complicated. But that is for another blog.
I've come to realize that true happiness has to start with me. I have to be the one to make me happy. I can't or shouldn't depend on someone else to be the reason I am happy. That only puts me in a more vulnerable and dangerous position.
Once I am happy with myself, for myself and about myself that all else will fall into place.
This year is the year of life changes. Some may be good, some may be bad, some happy and some sad. But in the end it is what is right for me and what is going to make me a happier person.
Wednesday, April 02, 2008
Catch Up
OK I should have written on Monday but I didn't have time.
I started my work outs on Monday. It felt real good. The trainer took me through the weight machine circuit and gave me recommended weights and reps. She made sure I knew how to work the machines, how to adjust the settings and made sure I did the exercise correctly.
For now I do my weight training every other day and my cardiovascular on opposite days but I am combining a little cardio or weight training (depending on which day it is) for every day.
Like yesterday was my cardio day. I worked out for half hour on the treadmill. then I went to the elliptical machine. That was my cardio. Then I ended it with the abdominal crunch machines and the lower back work out.
Today will be my third day. I'm back to the weight training. But I will end up working on the stair stepper before I'm done but only 5-10 minutes.
My arms are so sore today, I hope I will be able to even lift weights LOL
I'll keep you updated on my progress.
I started my work outs on Monday. It felt real good. The trainer took me through the weight machine circuit and gave me recommended weights and reps. She made sure I knew how to work the machines, how to adjust the settings and made sure I did the exercise correctly.
For now I do my weight training every other day and my cardiovascular on opposite days but I am combining a little cardio or weight training (depending on which day it is) for every day.
Like yesterday was my cardio day. I worked out for half hour on the treadmill. then I went to the elliptical machine. That was my cardio. Then I ended it with the abdominal crunch machines and the lower back work out.
Today will be my third day. I'm back to the weight training. But I will end up working on the stair stepper before I'm done but only 5-10 minutes.
My arms are so sore today, I hope I will be able to even lift weights LOL
I'll keep you updated on my progress.
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