How Easy We Forget

When something bad happens we always swear up and down that we will never do that again. We say how we are going to change, that will never happen again.

Who are we trying to kid here? Is it that we are trying to convince the one we have hurt or disappointed or is it more like we are trying to convince ourselves.

Knowing deep down that we won't ever change. Yes, we will hurt you again. It is only a matter of time before we forget what we had done and promised. Now only a dull and faded memory.

The thought of "Oh well they are over it, it is forgotten"

But is it? Is it really ever forgotten?

Sure we get over it and move on but it is still there in the back of our mind. Every hurt, every tear, every heartbreaking incident. We make excuses for the pain that is thrusted upon us.

They are human, they make mistakes, they won't do it again (That's a good one)
I have to change the way I think, feel, act, or should I say react.

Still doesn't work, does it?

So why do so many people stay? Why not cut losses early and get out?

Love? Hope? Failure? Want? Need?

But even that has its limits. When you get burned out from the hurt, the pain, the heartache, the fear, the sadness, the full range of emotions that leaves you drained.

Not so easy to forget then.