Follow Up

Tomorrow I have a follow up appointment with my doctor.

So far all the blood tests he did the last time came back normal.

We'll see how dropping the dosage for my BP is doing and possible switch me to a different medication.

The Wellbutrin seems to be working well. But the past couple of days I am starting to get that anxiety feeling.
I'm trying to work through it by keeping myself busy and my mind off certain things and that does help but it's been hard.

I am starting to feel out of control again and I hate that feeling.

I am not one to really ask for help but that is what I need. I have been thinking a lot about seeing and talking to a counselor. Maybe they can help me figure out how to deal with the anxiety I am feeling.

I don't need help to figure out what is wrong with me, that I already know and I know where it stems from. I just need guidance as to help me fix and deal with it.

I've been on my own, having to deal with everything by myself for a very very long time. I would so love for someone to just take me away and take care of me for a change but I don't see that happening.

I did hear from a very good friend of mine. We haven't talked much lately but we do keep in touch from time to time. I was asked to go away (get away) for a few days for some R&R. That couldn't have come at a better time!

Don't know where or when yet but I am already looking forward to it!