Better Than Me

"Better Than Me" - Hinder

I think you can do much better than me
After all the lies that I made you believe
Guilt kicks in and I start to see
The edge of the bed
Where your nightgown used to be
I told myself I won't miss you
But I remembered
What it feels like beside you
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me

While looking through your old box of notes
I found those pictures I took
That you were looking for
If there's one memory I don't want to lose
That time at the mall
You and me in the dressing room
I told myself I won't miss you
But I remembered
What it feels like beside you
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me

The bed I'm lying in is getting colder
Wish I never would've said it's over
And I can't pretend... I won't think about you when I'm older
Cause we never really had our closure
This can't be the end
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me

Who WIll Pay??!!!

When the new first came about about the tainted pet food from Menu Foods I was very worried.

Over 40 brands of cat and dog foods (mostly canned and pouch varieties) was making cats and dogs very sick. The cats would vomit, drink excessive water, their kidneys would then fail, they would lose excessive weight in a short period of time then die.

The list of foods did not just fall in the category of cheaper no-name brands but the trusted expensive foods also such as Iams and Eukenuba.

The recall is limited to "cuts and gravy" style pet food in cans and pouches manufactured at two of the Fund's United States facilities. These products are both manufactured and sold under private-label and are contract-manufactured for some national brands.

So while everyone is out buy the Overly High Priced Foods thinking it is the better pet food they might as well buy a decent food at a decent price with the same ingredients. (You are just paying for the name people!)

Back to the problem at hand.

A press release from Menu Foods stated: "The Fund has, however, discovered that timing of the production associated with these complaints, coincides with the introduction of an ingredient from a new supplier."

So Menu Foods has recalled a portion of their products but the damage is already done.

What about all those poor animals that suffered and have already died? Their owners heartbroken and distraught.

What about all the animals that are still alive but are now sick?

What about all the pet owners that have to take their beloved pet tot he vet and cannot afford treatment?

Who ends up paying for that? Who ends up paying for the bill?

Is their any action being taken? Any reimbursement from the pet food companies?

They introduce a new ingredient from a new supplier without even checking them out or testing the product and who ends up paying for it?

We do.

I have not heard anything about any compensation for those who have suffered a lose or who are currently dealing with the damage.

I will have to look into this and maybe write a few letters, emails etc.

I have two cats and a dog. All very precious to me. The thought of them eventually passing of old age disheartens me but for anything to happen to them before their time from some one elses negligence outrages me.

So far I am luckily blessed that they are healthy and happy. Lets hope it stays that way if not there will be HELL to pay!

When the ones I love are threatened or in danger I do whatever it takes to protect, fightback and see the wrong righted!

A Mind Boggling Why????

I'm a very open minded person and I have seen many odd things but this I just cant seem to get my brain to wrap around why some one make such things never the less buy them.

You are asking yourself "what in the world am I talking about?"


I was looking at a magazine called under gear. It is basically men's underwear, boxers swim trunks etc.


I'm always up for looking at Hot Buff Bods (that are probably air brushed) and who knows maybe I will find something that would like to see Mike wear (not that I think he would, but you never know)


That's when I came across it. It just boggled my mine as to WHY?


Right there on page 38. Padded Butt Briefs!!!


What in the hell would posses a man to want to wear PADDED BUTT BRIEFS?!?!

Who in their right mind would even think that making such a thing would even sell???

Is it a leap of faith or did they do a pole/survey to see if there was a high demand for Padded Butt Briefs? Makes me laugh just to say it.

So what goes through my mind now is the next time I see a guy with a nice looking ass is . . . . . . . is that his real ass of his Padded Butt Briefs?


So I continued on through the magazine and OMG it smacked me right in the face! I just couldn't believe what I was seeing. All I could do was shake my head and giggle.


You must be extremely secure in your manhood to even think to wear something like this!

Now maybe the mid cut would look so so by itself but the bikini and then the tank top . . . . Oh Hell No!
(Don't even think about it Mike!)


I just cant see a guy where this down the street or at a beach an not get picked on.


Moving on . . . . .

I haven't decided yet how I feel about the Push-Up Thong.

Description: Padding hidden inside lifts you up and out.

Again the view isn't bad but is it is padding then that is false advertising . . . . . what happens when you get home.......its getting all hot and heavy. The thongs come off and you suddenly have this puzzled look on your face. The woman is looking around to see where is all went to.

Then there are these outfits

This could be dangerous
Zipped String Thong


YIKES! What happens if you get it caught and you know you guys will!!

I have no words for this one!



They do have some decent clothing and products so as to be fair I will end it on a good note. Now the following I wouldn't mind in the least:

Yes they even have skin care products !

Check them out at http://www.undergear.com/

Mean Girlfriend

Don't get me wrong I love Mike but he makes it so easy to pick on him. But I do it all in love.

Mike is fairly odd at times. He has some very eccentric tastes especially when it comes to clothing. He has been in the past mistaken for being gay. He is often "in touch" with his feminine side so to speak.

He has a very low threshold for pain and he hates to be tickled. Although he endures from me at times.

Well this weekend was one of those times. I was scratching his back when he mentioned how I was going to put him to sleep so I slowly ran my hands down his sides and up by his rib cage which in turn he let out a high pitch "hey, stop that".

Now you must imagine him saying this in a fairy high yet soft squeal.

I couldn't help but burst out laughing. Of course, that made me do it all the more. Well, actually he had one of his legs overlapping mine so I squeezed his knee and moved my hand up his leg squeezing every so often. I could see his face awfully contort. He was trying so hard not to say anything . So I of course, did it all the more! Until he let out another squeal "That tickles" again in a soft girly type tone.

So I repeated how he was sounding. (Now say it with me in that soft but high tone) "Hey, cut it out........ stop that...........that tickles" LOL

His reply (once he stopped laughing) was are you picking on me? and of course I had to reply in his girly tone "Are You Picking On Me?" "Stop That" "Oouch That Hurts"

Which in turn he laughed and said, in a not so straight face, "You're such a mean girl friend".

I couldn't help but start to tickle him more under his arms and at his ribs all the while picking on his little squeal of "Hey Stop that, stop picking on me" "That tickles, cut it out" LOL

He makes it so easy........... I think he does it on purpose just to make me laugh.

My Baby Boo

C - E - L - E - B - R - A - T - I - O - N

This Saturday, March 17th is not only St Patrick's day but it will have been one year since Mike and I started seeing each other.


Unbelievable, I know!

At the time I was not looking for anything or anyone. But somehow he has managed to keep me around.


It hasn't been all roses either. We have had many ups and down and there will be many more to come I am sure. The key is not giving up, communicating, and being able to listen and go 50/50 on what will make the relationship work.



Poem For Mike

He makes me smile on most days
He makes me laugh at his stupid ways
He's made me cry, Don't get me wrong
He's written me poems and sung me songs

There's more to him than meets the eye
He has issues -- but so do I
He's always there trying to please
I think he like it when I tease

He's very creative and quiet the art--eeest
Sometimes he doesn't think so, not in the least

But I try to support him and show him the way
Together with him tomorrows a brighter day.

Hugs and Kisses Baby Boo

Weekends

I spent the whole weekend up at Mike's.

We figured a way for me to be able to spend a bit more time up there without me having to travel back and forth to my place to feed and let my dog out.

I just simply pack my bag and pack Maxx up and bring him with me.

At first Mike was a spaz. Yes Mike, I said a Spaz!

He was all worried about if the dog would attack the cats or the cats would attack the dog.

But yet he was constantly trying to get the cats to come and look at the dog.

Just leave them alone and they will be fine. But he couldn't. At first it was funny but after a while it got to be irritating.

That was the first time anyways. Things turned out well and by the end of the weekend we even had a Kodak moment when Foo went nose to nose with Maxx.

So this past weekend Maxx and I headed up again Friday night when I got out of work. Mike actually like when Maxx comes up because his cats (Barkley and Foo) behave a lot better than usual.

It was a good weekend and certain parts was REALLY good.

When he had to work Sunday I took him to work and went back to his place.
I hadn't said much about how his place was started to become a dump again so I started cleaning. I started with the kitchen which took most of the afternoon.

I figure that if I take the time and effort to clean up his mess of a kitchen then he can at least take the time and effort to keep it that way!

Not only did I clean his kitchen, I washed some laundry and even washed my car. All this within 5 hours (It Can Be Done!)

I felt more comfortable and homey than I ever have being there.
When I try to clean and Mike is home I always feel like a maid and I feel I am invading his territory. So I don't do much but sit there and watch movies, listen to music, play games or get on the Internet. I feel like I'm a guest and I have to be on my best behavior. So it was a nice homey feeling of being able to do whatever and not looking over my should to see if it freak someone out.

So we had a very nice weekend. We didn't get everything accomplished that we wanted to but it was nice all the same.

I'm looking forward to more weekend like that.

They Say Time Heals Everything

The past never seems to stay in the past. It always seems to creep up on you, no matter if it is a memory, a flashback, a feeling. Sometimes that isn't so bad.

I try not to linger in the past but sometimes the hurt that you feel from someone you loved the most just leaves a scar so deep that it is always going to be there as a reminder. Especially when there is loose ends or unanswered questions.

Music is a very import part of my life. To me it is like a therapist. It helps me cope and sort through things and it always expresses how I am feeling.......

Forgive, sounds good.
Forget, I'm not sure I could.
They say time heals everything,
But I'm still waiting

I'm through, with doubt,
There's nothing left for me to figure out,
I've paid a price, and I'll
keep paying

I'm not ready to make nice,
I'm not ready to back down,
I'm still mad as hell
And I don't have time
To go round and round and round
It's too late to make it right
I probably wouldn't if I could
Cause I'm mad as hell
Can't bring myself to do what it is
You think I should

I know you said
Why can't you just get over it,
It turned my whole world around and I kind of like it

I made by bed, and I sleep like a baby,
With no regrets and I don't mind saying,
It's a sad sad story
That a mother will teach her daughter
that she ought to hate a perfect stranger.
And how in the world
Can the words that I said
Send somebody so over the edge
That they'd write me a letter
Saying that I better shut up and sing
Or my life will be over

I'm not ready to make nice,
I'm not ready to back down,
I'm still mad as hell
And I don't have time
To go round and round and round
It's too late to make it right
I probably wouldn't if I could
Cause I'm mad as hell
Can't bring myself to do what it is
You think I should

Forgive, sounds good.
Forget, I'm not sure I could.
They say time heals everything,
But I'm still waiting . . . . . .

My Name Is Tracy and Im a Sex Addict

I'm going to blow the myth that all guys want is sex right out of the water!!!!!

Who ever is the one that started and spread that rumor around that all guys ever want is sex and how guys are sex fiends or horny toads is all a bunch of BULL SHIT!!!!

Sure when you first meet a guy or get to know a guy that seems to be the only thing they may want but let me tell ya.........once you start dating them it all seems to change!

It is said to be that the female is the one to lose interest in sex, lack of hormonal libido or whatever you want to call it when the guy is all but complaining that she NEVER gives it up.
How he is constantly begging her to have sex.

I ask, Where are these men????

I must be one of the very extreme unusual cases because, let me tell you I just LOVE sex.

All kinds of sex. The fun flirty kind, The hot passionate kind, the quick kind, the slow long take your time and make me feel every inch of you kind, the rough, the soft, the kinky and so on and so on.

I really hate to say it but it is the one thing I really look forward to to release a ot of pent up energy. I find that the more I have sex the better of a mood I tend to be.

I also hate to say it is an important part of a relationship but it is ONE of the MOST IMPORTANT parts of a relationship.

You need to be able to connect not only mentally but physically.

So far from what I see guys tend to be more "talk" than action. They talk big about wanting to have sex, and what they are going to do but when it comes down to it.......Nothing.

Either they stay up way too late and end up falling asleep, or they are too drunk and can't function, or one of my favorites "Sometimes guys just don't feel like"

Huh? What?

What about when they seem to want it when you aren't there. Then when you are together for some unknown reason the urge just doesn't seem as urgent. Or when they would rather read instead.

OK, just how are you suppose to take that????

My lover would rather read a book, stay up and watch a movie, play on the computer or any other number of things then to have wild hot passionate sex........

But if you bring up the subject of a toy or maybe bringing someone else into the mix....... It's ooohhhhh NO, I don't think so.

Maybe it is just an addiction. You know like drinking or smoking or drugs.

Actually I do feel it is like a drug for me.

When I don't get it I am moody, pissy, foul, down, depressed. But the more I get it I seem to smile more, laugh more, and be a lot happier.

Maybe I need to go to one of those sexaholic anonymous meetings.

Hello my name is Tracy and I'm a Sex Addict.......

Isn't He Sweet

I wanted to share an e-mail my sweety sent me today. (FYI: March 17th we will have been together for a year)


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Hi sweety:) This is by Beautiful south, they played it tonight on 106 and all I could think of was you saying its been a year. I hope we can one day sing a song like this:

Line one is the time
That you, you first stayed over at mine
And we drank our first bottle of wine
And we cried

Line two were away
And we both, we both had nowhere to stay
Well the bus-shelters always OK
When you're young

Now you're older and I look at your face
Every wrinkle is so easy to place
And I only write them down just in case
That you die

Lets take a look at these crows feet, just look
Sitting on the prettiest eyes
Sixty 25th of December's
Fifty-nine 4th of July's
Not through the age or the failure, children
Not through the hate or despise
Take a good look at these crows feet
Sitting on the prettiest eyes

Line three I forget
But I think, I think it was our first ever bet
And the horse we backed was short of a leg
Never mind

Line four in a park
And the things, the things that people do in the dark
I could hear the faintest beat of your heart
Then we did

Now you're older and I look at your face
Every wrinkle is so easy to place
And I only write them down just in case
You should die

Lets take a look at these crows feet, just look
Sitting on the prettiest eyes
Sixty 25th of December's
Fifty-nine 4th of July's
You cant have too many good times, children
You cant have too many lines
Take a good look at these crows feet
Sitting on the prettiest eyes

Well my eyes look like a map of the town
And my teeth are either yellow or they're brown
But you'll never hear the crack of a frown
When you are here
You'll never hear the crack
Of a frown

this song even made the DJ cry hehe its very good

Under The Weather

Last Friday I became very sick. It wasn't the full blown flu but some kind on borderline virus.

I just felt very off from the very start of when I woke up. As the morning continued I became more tired and lethargic. By noon I decided to go home and sleep and try to catch this before it got any worst. So for the rest of Friday and all of Saturday I was out. Slept practically 24/7. When I did manage to wake up it was at 30 intervals. Just long enough for me to get something to drink or go to the bathroom then head back to sleep or if I felt like it had been too long I would take Maxx out for a quick short walk to go to the bathroom. Then back to bed, completely under the covers, lights off, radio off, EVERYTHING OFF.

Finally Sunday I emerged from my cocoon. Groggy at first, but as I slowly awakened I started to feel a bit more human than I had been. As of today I feel better but I am still taking it easy but wouldn't you know we get this Arctic blast out of no where. Just what I need. We still have a lot of snow in the back yard so I can't just let him out in the back yard. I have to bundle up from head to toe and take him for a brisk walk. I haven't minded up until this morning. We weren't even gone for five minutes and I couldn't feel my legs. Not good for my cold. especially since I feel it borderline in my chest.

We turn forward the clocks this weekend so hopefully the weather will get warmer.

Say Cheese!

Last weekend I bough myself a new digital camera.

I already have one, a very good and expensive one, but something is wrong with it. I need to get it fixed but I haven't gotten around to it so in the mean time I picked up another one. Cheaper but just as good.

I did some research first as to what I should be looking for and I already knew what features I must have on the camera.

The MUST HAVES are self-timer and a mpg movie clip. Not that picky am I.

I think I got a good deal. Not only did I get those options but there is also a user-friendly "Effect" button. Some of the effect are photo frames, composite shooting, preset focus frames, and special effect colour. And the timer button has a few different selections of 2 second delay, 10 second delay, and a double self-timer.

I have already taken pictures exploring all the special effects. But Expect me to be taking a lot more and possibly posting them on my blog or websites.

I finally got around to get a few pictures of Mike and having them printed out and placed on my desk at work. Now I just have to work on getting some taken of the two of us together. I know he doesn't have any pictures of us together except the ones I had given him for V-day. Those are cute but really tiny.

We'll work on it..........

So Say CHEESE!