Another Year Older

So it's my Birthday tomorrow.

35 years ago, on February 8th, I was born in Seoul Korea at 7:47. From the stories my parents tell me I was almost air born!


It was snowing pretty bad and they had to take my mom to the hospital but the hospital was on the other side of the mountains. It would have taken too long if they took an ambulance, so the quickest way was to take a helicopter. Mind you my dad was in the army at the time so this is how it was all possible.

Most people don't like their birthdays once they start to get older but I do!

I don't think of myself as being old. I guess in my mind I still feel 25. I know I don't look 35. I still get carded for lottery tickets for crying out loud.

I have good and bad aspects of being 35.

Bad Aspects: I am 35 and I am still not really settled down. I don't have my own family. This is something I still really would like. But I am childless. By the time my parents were my age my brother were already born and on our way to growing up. So I tend to miss out on the "family" thing when everyone talks about their children.

I don't have my own house (Still renting) I just kind of feel like I'm floundering at times.

I was married but they didn't turn out very well. We are separated now but we get along so much better now.

Good Aspects: I am free to come and go as I please. I am not tied down. When most of my friends have to make plans well in advance or just can't just pick up and go out to a club or bar or even shopping I can just go on a whim at the last minute. I can pack up my car and just drive to Florida if I wanted. So that is a nice plus.

Because I still rent I don't have to spend tons of money (I don't have) fixing up my place. If something goes wrong I just tell the landlord and they fix it.

As for my relationships, I live and learn. The most important thing is to be happy. Life is too short to be miserable and to live miserable. There is so much out there that I still want to do and see and experience. I don't want to waste my life feeling sorry or being miserable or sad or upset.

I want to be happy and have fun and enjoy. Yes, I want to share that with someone special but I am not going to sacrifice my happiness to do it.

Right now I am lucky. I do have someone to share it with. It was a little rocky at the start but things are good now. And as long as they stay good and we continue to grow together and are happy we will be alright.

But there are no guarantees in life. People change, situations change. If there comes a time when were are not happy anymore, as much as I will hate to, I will walk away.

I have come a long way, every year a little more wiser.

But still always smiling. Happy Birthday To Me!