Tis The Season

Just as I expected, winter hit early this year.

I knew it was going to be an early cold winter. I could just tell. But everyone kept saying "NOOOOOO"

Well I don't know if it is stress or just because of the cold weather but I can't seem to shake this cold/flu/illness I seem to have come down with last week. It started out with flu like symptoms. Hot and cold chilled, excessively high fever, aches all over. Of course that made me whinny, and I never whine, so I knew I was sick.

Then I seemed to have recovered from that, but still seemed to be tired. Now it seems I have a cold. I'm all stuffy and m y nose ..... well lets just say I have a feeling I could end up being the next Rudolph if I'm not careful.

I have been doing very well in the past few years of not getting sick but it seems this is my year to just not be well at all.

What I would love to do is go where it is warm. or just hibernate for the winter. Crawl under my nice warm electric blanket and 4 comforters and just sleep.

Thus I haven't been writing much in my bloggs.

At least I have just about all my Christmas shopping finished. I'm ahead of schedule there.

So bare with me and hopefully soon I will be back to writing my insane ranting about nothing.

If I don't get back here in time. If I don't see or talk to you before then, I hope you all have a Very Merry Christmas and a Wonderful Safe New Years!

I will see you in the spring.......

Who I really am

Who Am I?

I am someone who just wants to be loved.
Who wants to feel loved.
Who wants to be showed that I am loved.

I want to feel needed and wanted.
I want to feel like I am special and important in someone life.

I am a very independent person and because of that I crave this attention. I have this need to be the center of someones world because I have, for a very long time, been the only one to make sure things get taken care of and who has taken care of me.

I need someone to be the one to take care of me for a change.
Not that I would lose my independence because I cant and wont do that but all my life I have been the care taker and care giver. The responsible one, the one to make everyone else happy. Never asking for much in return, just for their love and attention.

I'm not clingy. I feel I give ample space, sometimes maybe too much space. I try to see things their way and I try to be very patient and understanding but even that has its limits.

I really do try to work to compromise but for some reason it always comes back to where I get the short end of the deal.

Do I deserve this treatment? -- No
Am I asking for too much or being unreasonable for what I want or feel? --- No

I am stubborn what it comes to something I feel strongly about. I wont back down easily but at the same time I will try to see the other persons point of view. I expect the same in return.

I am loyal to my friends, family and loved ones but even loyalty can wear thin when you are not treated well.

I don't make empty promises. I really try hard to say what I mean and mean what I say.

Sometimes in the heat of the moment I may say things that I don't necessarily mean but because of the intensity of the situation or if I am backed into a corner I will come out swinging. I wont play fair. I will say things that I feel at that moment that may be hurtful and mean. Sometimes it is the only to get my point across in letting someone know exactly how I'm feeling or that I mean business.

I am hurt. More than anyone could ever know. Definitely more than anyone could ever see. I wont let them see.
I am slowly shutting down and building up walls. My defense mechanism.

Someone who truly knows me and truly cares can see it or sense it. I have to say there is only one maybe two people in this world who can do this, so I have the rest of the world fooled.

It does scare me though. I'm afraid of what might become of me. An empty shell. Happy and smiles on the outside but lonely as hell on the inside. I went through many years like that. I did have a short time when it seemed I had everything I was looking for only to have it ripped away from me..... maybe it was just a dream.

So the question lies: Who am I?

I am a woman who does not give up easily but after being beaten down so many times doesn't feel she has the strength to keep moving on.

I am a woman who, as I said in the beginning, wants to be loved, showed love, and feel loved.

I want to feel more important than work, friends, games, computers, cars, and everything else that keeps the attention of the male species.

I am a woman who will put 120% into any relationship

And when I don't always have to be the care giver, the adult who makes sure everything is taken care of I can let lose and have a little fun. But I don't get that chance often as I always seem to be the one who has to make sure things are taken care of.

Against All Odds

( You Know Who You Are )


How can i just let you walk away, just let you leave without a trace
When i stand here taking every breath with you
You're the only one who really knew me at all

How can you just walk away from me,
When all I can do is watch you leave
Cause we've shared the laughter and the pain and even shared the tears
You're the only one who really knew me at all

So take a look at me now, oh there's just an empty space
And there's nothing left here to remind me,
Just the memory of your face
Ooh take a look at me now, well there's just an empty space
And you coming back to me is against all odds and that's what i've got to face

I wish I could just make you turn around,
Turn around and see me cry
There's so much I need to say to you,
So many reasons why
You're the only one who really knew me at all

So take a look at me now, well there's just an empty space
And there's nothing left here to remind me, just the memory of your face
Now take a look at me now, coause there's just an empty space

But to wait for you, is all i can do and that's what i've got to face
Take a good look at me now, cause i'll still be standing here
And you coming back to me is against all odds
It's the chance i've gotta take

Take a look at me now

My Christmas Tree

I know it is a bit early for this ..... But I thought it would be fun to post and see what everyone would like to leave me.

Please leave me a present.

I've been very very good or "Bad" depending on what you like!

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First Snow Fall

Why am I still here in New York, where it is cold?

Today is the first snow fall. Flurries and wind, nothing sticking to the ground but still.

This only means that winter is right around the corner and soon the snow will be accumulating. I'd prefer 90 degree weather and full sun.

Even for Christmas I can do without snow, doesn't bother me in the least.

I still have no heat in my place so I am counting the days until summer again!

Do You Know Where You Live???

Working in circulation I find out more and more how people are just plain stupid.

I know everyone has an off day but being on the other end of the phone each day I seem to see that maybe it just isn't an off day maybe these people really are stupid.

I hear all sorts of dumb things. Like when They want to pay with their credit card and I say OK when you are ready read off your number and they hesitate. As I am impatiently waiting, I can almost hear the gears turning. Then they say to me, "Uh what numbers do your need?"

At this point I am thinking (Have you never used a credit card before?) and then politely say to them, " The numbers on the front of your card." {Duuhhh}

Well the new thing lately is addresses. Due to new postal regulations we need to clean up our mailing lists. We have to make sure all the addresses are correct mailing addresses. Makes sense right? Why would we want to be sending out papers to wrong addresses that will only end up coming back. Or because of having an incorrect address there might be a delay in the delivery of the subscribers paper and they will end up calling me and bitching me out for there wrong doing.

I have well over 100,000 subscribers throughout all the papers we publish so this will take some time to get fixed. But I go through and print out all the invalid addresses and slowly, one by one try to look them up on line. I go through the yellow pages, white pages, 411.com, switchboard, you name it I have been to it. If I can't seem to find an updated address or corrected address I send them out a letter telling them the whole situation.

For the most part I will get back the information I need. But there are always a few that insist we already have their correct address. Some get a little pissy and have to be assholes and say shit like [Give me a break is this wasn't my correct address then how did this letter get to me].

So then I have to dig further and try other resources and other means of getting their correct address. I contact my Customer Service Rep at the main Post Office in Albany.

Jim and I have a special type of relationship. We joke and sometimes just chit chat about other things. This is how we call each other.

But he usually comes through for me and finds my information.

It's just amazing how these people just don't know their correct mailing information. Kinda make me wonder how they live their lives.

Do You Know Where You Live?

Two Bit Morons

Every Year since I can remember Trick or Treat has been 6pm - 8pm.

The past 10 years I have always been swamped with trick or treaters. The last couple of years I wasn't home but this year I was going to be and made sure I would be. I stocked up with candy. I bought bags and bags of it. I h ave a Big cauldron filled to the top with assorted candy and treats plus I have a grocery bag filled with over flow of candy.

I get out of work at 5 pm as do a majority of people in this area do. When I reach my town I notice there are a few children out on the streets already. Most were small infants being pushed by strollers so I thought possibly the firehouse had a costume parade and the children would go trick or treating from there.

I get home run quickly to the house, flip on the light, gather all the candy by the door and impatiently wait for my first child!

Now mind you I have been dressed up in a yellow M&M costume all day and I still had it on because I wanted to hand out candy to the children in it. Maxx, my dog had to go to the bathroom and I made him wait a bit before letting him out the back door.

After about 10 - 15 minutes not seeing anyone coming to my door I let the dog out and started to straighten up my place. Then I headed outside to the front porch to see why I wasn't getting any treaters.

I saw a group of children heading my way so I just waited for them outside and handed out fists full of candy to each child.

Still not knowing what was going on I was quickly getting disappointed.

It was almost 6pm when I decided to go back in the house and just wait for someone to knock on my door. Which is when Danny and his son, Cameron came a knocking.

This is when I found out that they started trick or treating early this year.

Whoever the intelligent numb skull was to decide to change the time to 4 pm - 6 pm was down right moronic!

Most people don't get out of work or even home until 5pm! But lets not think of that now!

So now here I am with a shit load of candy. I'm just not even going to bother with it anymore. Why bother. I think they purposely changed the time to suit the needs of the welfare. Who sit on their asses all day and do nothing.

But that is only my opinion.

Happy Halloween '07

So this year I decided to make my own costume.

When I first put it on this morning I felt completely stupid.

But I feel I did a good job with it, being my first time making one and all.

You should have seen me, I headed out my door and I heard a car coming so I ducked back into the house quickly.

When the coast was clear I headed for my car hoping that there would be no other cars around. I stuffed myself in the drivers seat and headed to work. I was laughing the whole way. I could only imagine what other people were thinking whne they passed me in their vehicles as they see this bright yellow things driving a red car!

Anyway, it is Halloween so live it up.

Here are some pictures of me and my co workers.

Enjoy!

First Frost

Monday October 29th, 2007.

I believe it will be an early winter. We have had our first frost of the year here in the Mohawk Valley.

I had to use my car starter. I have no heat in my apartment. I just can't afford to have them come fill my propane. The last time I had heat was about three years ago. That was a very long winter. They were coming to fill up by tank every two weeks and I was shelling out $200 each time. This is before the price hike in gas and heating oil. So I could only imagine what it might cost me now.

Last year I managed to make it through the winter with only little electrical heaters. But last winter was mild and short. The weather didn't get horrifically cold until mid January when we got blasted with snow.

Temperatures never dropped drastically and they didn't stay cold for long. With the Valentine's Day Blizzard (2007) We had an abundant of snow padding covering everything. It took a while to finally melt but it was livable.

This year here is it just about the end of October and we've had our first frost.

I've already had to find warmer homes for my Betta fish. I can't see my breath yet in the house but I'm sure that is only around the corner.

I'm still holding off plugging in the portable heaters only because that will spike my electric bill.

It's a struggle but it only makes me tougher (which is nothing new to my most wondrous life) At least I know that I could survive anything thrown at me.

If you don't hear from me for a while I might be a frozen Popsicle....... then I will see in the the spring when I thaw out! LOL

Rickardo

I went to the mall Friday night right after work. I needed to get a pair of white sneakers to complete my Halloween costume.

After I found my shoes I stopped over at Hot Topic and as I was coming out of the store this guy walks up to me and asked to see my hands.



So I show him my hands and he takes hold of my left hand and asks if he can show me something. He asked me when the last time I had said "WOW"?



I told him I I can't remember the last time I had said "WOW"



His reply to me was, "why, all you need to do is look in the mirror"



Of course this made me chuckle a slightly.

He asked me my name, I told him my name was Tracy. He said it was a pleasure to meet me and told me his name was Rickardo. (How fitting)


Oh he was smooth, suave. Not bad looking at all. He had one of those sexy Hispanic accents. Actually he sounded like Ricky Martin. But I had his number.



He was talking about my nails and how in no time at all I could have them looking smooth and shiny and I would only have to do it once a month.



So he smoothed, buffed and then shined my nail. Then went into his pitch of selling his product. All the while being very charming.



Now my nail did look very very nice. Took very little time. For only $40 I could have the whole kit.



I told him how it was nice but that I didn't have the money. So he grabs my hand and leads me over to his chair. He told me he would give it to me for his price but I couldn't tell anyone.
He takes a whopping $10 off. Now if he said he could give it to me for $20 I would have taken it but $30...... Not good enough. Besides I am very resourceful and know how to shop (for the most part) I can simply by similar products at the dollar store or Walmart cheaper and get the same results.

But Nice try Rickardo.

Melt In your Mouth Not In Your Hand

So Halloween is right around the corner.

Last year I skipped it all together. No candy to give out for the trick or treaters, no costume, no nothing!

This year I'm more festive and decided to be even more creative than usual.

So I decided to make my own costume.

Bet you can't guess what it is????

I've been working on it for two weeks now, off and on at least. I have come across some difficulties which just made me think of new ways to go about getting my end result.

As of right now I am almost finished.

I have to get an A for effort at least.

Next year I am buying my costume!!! LOL

Congratulations Are In Order

Big Congratulations going out to Baby Boo.


He just started a new job at Grandoe.

Normal 8 to 5 hours. He was so excited when I spoke to him Tuesday.

I mean to the point that he was excited about having office supplies at his desk.

You will do well, just believe in yourself because I believe in you.

Hugs and Kisses


Love

"Me"

Cider

Cider press at Sharon Orchards


Layers of shredded apples are spread in a cheese cloth material





Once they have all the layers filled they finally start to press


Close Up of the Cider Press








A big vat catches all the pressed juices from the apples


This is what is left over after all the pressing is finished

Sharon Orchards

It's That Year Again!

That's Right!

Apple Picking Season!

Just recently I went to Sharon Orchards. It is a yearly tradition. We always pick a bushel of apples, watch them press apple cider, buy fresh cider doughnut, and of course buy some apple cider.

Luckily they were doing a cider press while we were there so I was able to take a few pictures, which will be in a later blog.

Paully with some cider. Doesn't he look just oooh so happy?? LOL

Smile Paul It Wont Kill Ya!

East End

Tammy and I went out for a bit the other night.

It is nice to get away and not have to think about all the crap that goes on in our daily lives.

"Ody" Mickey Boslet was there again as the karaoke DJ.

There was more younger college looking kids there. I'd say mid 20's. The annoying "Dixie Chick" girl wanna be wasn't there, either was the lesbian. That kind of made for a less entertaining evening.

But the other older dorky guy who loves to sing was there for a short time. He even came over to Ody when he was talking to us to ask to sing a duet with one of us girls. Tammy quickly refused saying she wasn't drunk enough to sing and that she was more the dancing type (you know like on bars) LOL

Ody had stated that that was right, pointing at me that I was the singer and then pointing at Tammy that she was the dancer.

I did get enough courage to get up an sing again. Starting to come out of my box a little bit more..... Well depending on what it has to do with.

But I did get a compliment from this guy and girl at the bar. The girl was a bartender at East End. She wasn't working that night but she said that I did a very good job and told me how they have had quiet a few "Winners" attempting to sing.

So that made me feel good. LOL

There is a STAR in the making! LOL

Anytime

I can’t remember why we fell apart
From something that was so meant to be, yeah
Forever was the promise in our hearts
Now, more and more I wonder where you are

Do I ever cross your mind, anytime
Do you ever wake up reaching out for me
Do I ever cross your mind anytime
I miss you

Still have your picture in a frame
Hear your footsteps down the hall
I swear I hear your voice, driving me insane
How I wish that you would call
To say

I miss you
I miss you
(no more) loneliness and heartache
(no more) crying myself to sleep
(don’t want no more) wondering about tomorrow
Won’t you come back to me
Come back to me

I miss you

Evening In HELL

Being the nice sweet, wonderful person I am - I agreed to take Art and Paul to a concert at Northern Lights in Albany.


Totally not my type of music. This was death metal. Cannibal Corps was the main headlining band and there was three other bands before they came on. I was in Music HELL!!


The doors opened at 6:30pm, We arrived there about 6pm so we had to wait in line about half hour. Talk about freaks. There there kids with long straggly hair, spiked hair, piercings in all sorts of places, some had jet black hair, black lipstick, chains and big black combat boots.


Second band in the bouncers had to escort a couple of guys out. The was a swarm of people moshing and you could see was people jumping and smashing into each other.


I just don't get it.


I couldn't take much more of it so I headed outside for a bit.


I called Mike and sat in my car for a bit listening to Godsmack trying to detox from the horrible music my poor ear was enduring.


I went back in to catch the last band (Cannibal Corps) I couldn't even make it thought the first song without having to leave again.


It was quiet the experience. I would have chalked it up as such if it wasn't for Art Vomiting in my back seat.


All I could smell of was the JD, which almost made me vomit. Down the windows came.


Art was so trashed he couldn't walk straight if his life depended on it. I could barely make out what he was even attempting to say. He started mumbling something about us going to school together and being in kindergarten together. I laughed my ass off for a while until he puked.

Once I finally got both Paul and Art in the car we headed home. We couldn't have been in the car more than 10 minute before I thought I head something trickling like water. It took me a few seconds to realize what was going on, more so because I just didn't want to believe it was really happening. I asked Paul if that sound was what I thought it was. Paul was like, "Awe man, Arts puking all over the back seat."

I'm thankful that I couldn't see the damage at that time

He felt so bad about it that he gave me $100 when I dropped him off home. I told him he didn't have to do that and that I didn't want it but he kept insisting. Said it didn't even come close to what he did but that he wanted me to have it.


Well the next morning I saw just how much damage was done.

Sorry

Madonna said it best.



SORRY

I don't wanna hear, I don't wanna know
Please don't say you're sorry
I've heard it all before
And I can take care of myself
I don't wanna hear, I don't wanna know
Please don't say 'Forgive me'
I've seen it all before
And I can't take it anymore

You're not half the man you think you are
Save your words because you've gone too far
I've listened to your lies and all your stories
You're not half the man you'd like to be

I don't wanna hear, I don't wanna know
Please don't say you're sorry
I've heard it all before
And I can take care of myself
I don't wanna hear, I don't wanna know
Please don't say 'Forgive me'
I've seen it all before
And I can't take it anymore

Don't explain yourself 'cause talk is cheap
There's more important things than hearing you speak
You stayed because I made it so convenient
Don't explain yourself, you'll never see


I don't wanna hear, I don't wanna know
Please don't say you're sorry
(Don't explain yourself cause talk is cheap)
I've heard it all before, And I can take care of myself
(There's more important things than hearing you speak)
I don't wanna hear, I don't wanna know
Please don't say 'forgive me'

I've heard it all before
I've heard it all before
I've heard it all before
I've heard it all before

Getting Back to Me

The past week of so I have been slowly making a come back.

It won't happen over night and I am not rushing or pushing it but I need to find myself again.

Some how, some way I lost myself. Who I was, what I liked to do, the things that made me happy, my goals, just simply "me".

It started last fall and got worst throughout the winter months. By spring I was completely and deeply depressed. I don't mean that I just wasn't happy or just a little blah feeling. I mean I was clinically depressed. I didn't care about anything or anyone, I didn't care to do anything, go anywhere I tried my hardest to do the things that usually made me feel good and that didn't even help.

I finally went to get some help. Finding out that the majority of it was my medication I was taking for my BP. Within a matter of weeks I was feeling back to normal. (Not saying my life was great or better) but I felt human again. Like I can deal with whatever life throwing at me.

That was the start of being back on track. Like I said my life still wasn't the greatest. Still wasn't at the point of where I want to be. I am not the type that will or can idly sit by and just let things happen because for me then nothing happens. Depending on what it is I want I go out and make it happen.

If I want to be happy I must make myself happy. I can't and shouldn't depend on others to do that for me. I think this is where I started to go wrong. How can I put that pressure and that huge responsibility on someone else. Especially if they aren't Happy themselves. How could I possibly think that they could make me happy and vice versa.

No it is me. It is all up to me now. So I am starting my taking control of my life again. Getting my life in order. I need structure of some sort I can't just faulter. That isn't me. That doesn't mean I can't be spontaneous because I can and most of the time do things on the spur of the moment but I like to have a little guide line of where I am heading.

I realized things starting to shift when my GF and I went out one night. Girls night. We had fun, Lots of fun. I didn't get drunk and I still had a great time. That's what matters. I did what I wanted and liked doing for a change.

Then I spent some time at my other gf House just visiting but it was nice to shoot the breeze. Where she came over to my house last Friday for an hour or two. She needed to get away from her miserable life for a bit. So she stopped over and we talked and had a drink but it was nice.

I miss the old days of hanging out with my friends on the front porch or having a small little fire in the back yard. I need to get back there, to the place when I smile and laughed and just enjoyed myself and I will.

How Dumb Can You Be?

How Dumb Can You Be?

I guess my fuse is very short today as I am finding myself more and more irritated by really STUPID people!

I just had a subscriber call me to renew his subscription.

First of all he rattles off his name and address but it all runs together so I can't understand a single word he said.

I'm sure he didn't even know which paper he was subscribed to so I didn't even bother to ask him.

I went straight to asking him if he has his account number or label number.

He sounded confused about the question I asked him, like what do I mean by label or account number.

So I told him the number above your name on the label or if he had an invoice it would be in the box that said "ACCOUNT NUMBER"

So he rattles off the number and tells me he wants to pay with his credit card.

When I told him anytime he was ready he can read off his card number.

He says, "Uuuhh what number do you need off the card?"

I smack my head and (to myself say "Duuuuhh") Take a deep breath and told him as politely as I could the account number... the big long number across the card.

How dumb can one be?

Churchill Put Some Clothes On

While staying at the Waterside Inn we encountered some of the other guests that were staying there also.


One happen to be this little boy named Churchill.


The family was staying one the first floor (we were on the second floor) and they were one room over. But in the morning we would go out on the balcony to check the weather and the view and Churchill would be feeding the birds or ducks. The one morning we woke up to crying. Not sure if it was Churchill or his baby brother Charlie (Charlie had a fever).

The first time we saw Churchill was at the pool.

Tuesday we went window shopping and headed back to relax by the pool for the rest of the afternoon. It must have been close to supper time, Kim and I were still laying by the pool Churchill and his family had went back to their room to get ready to get something to eat. The next thing we knew Churchill was outside of the pool area running around with no clothes on.


It was kinda funny, I mean this kid had to be 1 1/2 maybe 2 years old.


Then he was outside on his balcony with no clothes on one of the mornings.


The finally straw was when we went to the beach on Wednesday.

This is a big long beach. Plenty of room. What are the odds of running into Churchill and his family???

Over by the rest room and rinse off station there he was, yet again, Naked!!!!

He is quiet the little nudest. Should have a shirt made for him "Clothing Optional"

You can kinda see Churchill's father (Chruchill Sr) and baby brother (Charlie) over on the left

A Night Out

I haven't been out in a while.

I don't know why. Not because I haven't been asked to go out because I have had a few people ask me if I want to go out but I just guess it is more like I didn't feel like going out.

But last night was a needed occasion!

My Best Girlfriend needed to get out and get completely wasted. I said I'd be the DD so I already knew I wasn't drinking much.

We ended up at the East End Steakhouse. Not a lot of people which was fine by me. I'm not really one for wall to wall people.

We sat down with our drinks and conversed a bit before we saw this guy coming in the door with DJ equipment.

A comment was made that maybe we picked a good night to go out. Come to find out that it was for Karaoke.

Now mind you I wasn't drinking much because of being the DD do I had no intention of going up and singing. As much as I love to sing and karaoke in the privacy of my own home.

The DJ (Cody) kept coming up and asking if we picked out a song yet and if were were going to sing.

Eventually Tammy threw me in the bag and said I was going to sing and I had mentioned Carrie Underwood "Before He Cheats"

Before I knew it he had me called up there to sing it!

To myself I thought "Okay, step outside the box for a change and do something you wouldn't normally do and that you might not be so comfortable doing"

We got to talking with the DJ and found out he was from Ft Plain too and that he know a lot of people we worked with. He talked to Tammy about where she lived in Jersey. I forget now how we even got on the topic but he asked about my family and I told him my dad's name and how he use to own the video store and he said yeah he knows my dad and my brother. (Such a small world)

This one time I went outside with Tammy when she had her "smoke" and when we came back in we were standing by the door talking. Our table was over to the side so I kept backing up thinking I had backed up to the table and stool next to ours. Boy was I Wrong!

When I turned around to set at our table I was face to face with this guy who had been sitting in the stool next to our table, I had back up just about on his lap. He never said anything and either did Tammy.

I apologized profusely for bumping into him and he insisted it was no problem at all.
We got to talking a bit. We talked about his work and how he likes to go kayaking. We talked about karaoke and how he usually comes to the East End on Wednesdays to sing. Then he asked if I wanted to sing a duet with him. I was hesitant but did agree.

Of course he picks a song I don't even know. He picked Meatloaf - I'd Lie for you (and that's the truth) I have never even heard the song but I did my best LOL. We also sung another one together later on (Stevie Nicks and Tom Petty Stop dragging my Heart Around)

I finally got Tammy up there to sing but I had to do it indirectly!

This cute guy came over to look at the book for a song to sing and asked Tammy if she wanted to sing a duet, of course Tammy said no but I said yes that she would sing one.

After a few minutes I walked over to him and asked if he was singing a duet with Tammy. He then asked what she wanted to sing and I said it didn't matter let him pick it out.

We had a very good time. I haven't had that much fun since my vacation, which in turn was a different kind of fun.

It's when I go out and have such a good time as I did last night that I remember why I use to like going out. Hanging with my friends and going out. Doing the things that I would like to do. It kinda brings out the old me.

Plus having someone show an interesting in you does make you feel good.

Emil Johnson

Emil Johnson called because he has not received his subscription and demanded that we deliver it right to his door.

As he was shouting it at me I raised my voice to him as well. I'm sorry but the saying as to where the Customer is always right does not fly with me. Especially if they are yelling and completely rude to me I will give it right back.

and I just love the subscribers that feel they are the only one that gets the paper and I should know how they are and take care of them as if they mean anything to me at all.

I explained to him that we were not allowed to deliver the paper personally. as he kept I insisting that he deserved to have this paper delivered to him today and that I was to find someone here that could come and deliver his paper.

As I explain yet again that we (meaning anyone in the company) is not allowed to hand deliver the paper to a customer. But if he would like he is more thank welcome to stop over in the front office and pick up this weeks paper. (Now he lives in Ft plain and we are in Palatine bridge it is all of what maybe 10-15 minutes away depending on where about you live.

He then went off about he doesn't have time because he has to milk the cows and if I would like to come up there and milk the cows for him as he comes here to do my job.

Oh Boy did I bite my tongue (BIG TIME) I should get a raise for not ripping this guy a new asshole.

But I wasn't backing down and was giving it right back with attitude as he was giving it to me from the beginning.

There would be no way he would be even able to begin to understand or handle my job. (Maybe then he wouldn't be such as ass) Plus what does it take all day long to milk cows??? NOT!

Doesn't he have a wife or even a worker that could come down and pick it up for him. I'm sure he could spare 15-20 minutes out of his day to pick up a paper that he is in such dire needs to read.

Then he asked me if I thought the paper was important to read...... LOL now that is a joke. Are you kidding me?


HELL NO I don't think the paper is worth ready and why should I. I am not a farmer I could care less about what is in the paper so No No I don't think it is worth reading or that important.

So I said to him that he is the subscriber and that to him it is an important paper to read and since he feels that way he can come pick up the paper here in the office.

So he thought that I was saying I wouldn't send it to him and he mentioned to me about me not even mailing out the paper.

So I had to say well sir I would be happy to mail you out the paper but you didn't want that. You said you wanted the paper hand delivered to you TODAY! (and I hope I sounded very condescending)

To this all he would do was spit and sputter a bit.

I also told him that I could not possible know if there was a problem with his paper unless he calls to tell me but I could not find out instantaneously what the problem was. It would take a little time After all I was dealing with the United State Post Office and being a part of the government we all know how that goes.

To which he huffed and say yeah good luck with that and I said exactly, so why is it you think I would be able to fix your problem in just a few minutes?

Don't piss me off and because I don't back down especially when I am being attacked for no reason.

See this just confirms that MEN are ASSHOLES!

Cable Guy

My brother is the Time Warner Man

He has been working for TW for .....hmmmm....lets see....almost two years now or maybe it has already surpassed the two year mark but anyway he is the Time Warner Cable Guy!

He installs the cable, hooks up the Internet, fixes any problems that may arise.

Here he is at work.

This is in front of my parents house.

He is replacing an old cable line with a new line.

He's up there quiet high isn't he!!!

That's my dad standing on the ground just watching my brother....... he calls it supervising...LOL

Fonda Fair

It's not what it use to be but I still went to the Fonda Fair.

I don't go for the rides nor do I go to check out all the booths. The reason I like going is to check out the animals. The horses, the goats, rabbits, even the cows.

So I got a few good shots.