Me

I've been feeling like I just don't know where I fit in anymore or where I rank.

Things change --- Life changes. Even when they are for the better it can be scary.

Temptation is always out there and don't you know when you feeling insecure and unsure of yourself it is right there staring you in the face!

That is when you have to be the strongest but at the same time that is when you are the most confused.

I always try to do the right thing. Think of others first. Make it easier for them.
Do you know how hard and tiring that can be? It drains me and somes just feels like it sucks the life right out of me. Kind of like an empath.

So what do you do in the mean time?

You really are screwed. Pretend nothing is wrong and let it eat you up inside. Build a wall to protect yourself -- but do you know how hard and how long it takes to tear them down? Go with the flow and have your many ups and downs but this also can lead to insecurities, resentments, changed feelings.

See ..... like I said you are screwed.

I have found an escape. I've been doing alot of reading lately. It's my way of escaping to another world where I don't have to be me and I don't have to feel what I feel or think about anything but where the book is taking me.