State of Mind

Over the past year and a half my life has been pretty much like my own little soap opera.

For those of you who are close to me, you know what I'm talking about and all the details that come along with it. For those of you who don't know me or who are out of the loop in a quick nutshell: Men, relationships, conflicts, breakups, etc.

Things have been pretty calm lately which can only mean that something is brewing.

My mind and heart is constantly in conflict. Which is probably why I'm not getting much sleep.

I need to really get away, try to work things out and possibly think of "me" for a change and not everyone else. But I know that won't happen because that is not who I am.

So for now I just think and think and try to sort though things. I take everything in and file it and see how it all plays out.

I know I'm not making much sense right now. How can I -- I dont understand myself so I can't possibly think you could follow me.

Just bare with me. When I know then you will know too