Ghosts and Goblins, Witches Too........
Evil Lurking...... Waiting For You
All Hallows Eve - Mischief - Rituals - Spells Cast
TPing, Egging and whipped creamed or Shaving creamed vehicles.
Not much into it this year.
The dressing up in costumes.
Normally I'm home and hand out candy to all the little kiddies but I won't be there this year. So I saved some money.
I've had a few people ask what I'm dressing up as.
I just don't seem to be in it but I have thought of a few ideas which I could pull off in a humorous way I suppose:
I can tape a buck ($1.00) to each ear and say I'm a buccaneer (Buck 'N ear)
I can have a quarter and a hammer on hand and when asked what I am I can place the quarter down and pound it with the hammer and say I'm a quarter pounder.
Or if I can find one of my baby dolls, I can somehow strap it to my ass and say I'm a baby sitter!
AT work it's simple I wont be there so Im the invisible woman
Ahhhh... maybe next year I'll be more in the mood!
Happy Halloween!
Monday, October 30, 2006
Friday, October 27, 2006
Two Out of Three Ain't Bad
October 27, 2006
Today's Song Pick (Oldy but a Goody)
Two Out of Three Ain't Bad
- Meatloaf
Baby we can talk all night
But that ain't getting us nowhere
I told you everything I possibly can
there's nothing left inside of here
And maybe you can cry all night
But that'll never change the way that I feel
The snow is really piling up outside
I wish you wouldn't make me leave here
I poured it on and I poured it out
I tried to show you just how much I care
I'm tired of words and I'm too hoarse to shout
But you've been cold to me so long
I'm crying icicles instead of tears
And all I can do is keep on telling you
I want you
I need you
But -- there ain't no way I'm ever gonna love you
Now don't be sad
cause two out of three ain't bad
Now don't be sad
cause two out of three ain't bad
You'll never find your gold on a sandy beach
you'll never drill for oil on a city street
I know you're looking for a ruby in a mountain of rocks
But there ain't no coupe de ville hiding at the bottom of a cracker jack box
I can't lie
I can't tell you that I'm something I'm not
No matter how I try
I'll never be able
To give you something
Something that I just haven't got
there's only one girl that I will ever love
And that was so many years ago
And though I know I'll never get her out of my heart
She never loved me back
Ooh I know
I remember how she left me on a stormy night
She kissed me and got out of our bed
And though I pleaded and I begged her not to walk out that door
She packed her bags and turned right away
And she kept on telling me
She kept on telling me
She kept on telling me
I want you
I need you
But there ain't no way I'm ever gonna love you
Now don't be sad
cause two out of three ain't bad
I want you
I need you
But there ain't no way I'm ever gonna love you
Now don't be sad
cause two out of three ain't bad
don't be sad
cause two out of three ain't bad
Baby we can talk all night
But that ain't getting us nowhere
Tuesday, October 24, 2006
All About Nothing
Can you belive that it is already the end of October and we turn the clocks back 1 hour this weekend!!!
Funny how fast time goes by. When you stop and think of what you have been through in the last year.
Last year, at this time, I was going through some rough times.
My husband and I were in the process of seperating. I was conflicted at every turn. It was like he didn't want to move out but at the same time we couldn't work anything out. We needed the space.
Every time I was seeing someone or I went out on a date and he found out I would get this sarcastic attitude from him. Which made me NOT want to talk to him.
Now, here we are, a year later. We talk and hang out. We are still there for each other, But still living apart. (Seems to work better that way).
The other day we wer talking about this girl he had met on myspace and was meeting in person. A few days later when I talked to him he was telling me about her. That she was a nice person and was very pretty but was also telling me that he felt she was way out of his league and he probably wouldnt see her again. So I was being supportive and asking why he felt that way and that it could work he has to stop thinking that way.
And as our conversation was going on, I was thinking....Whatis wrong with this picture??? LOL
He's asking me why I wasnt up seeing my "boyfriend" and Im talking to him about seeing some other woman....strange - But true.
So we have come a long way.
He lets me come down and watch my shows that I have taped on the DVD and that come on certain nights and I cook supper and we do go out places (shopping, Eat, Movies). We are there for each other. We are and will alwasy be good friends.
I still love him and never want anything bad to happen to him. We just weren't meant to be together in that way I guess.
What I wanted and needed he just wasn't able or willing to give me. He was always happy with the same old status quo and I wasn't.
But we are both in a better place now.
Easily put - if you want to see what my life is like watch the movie "The Break up"
When I saw it I thought I was looking at my life. Right down to the end.
So, to wrap this up. The last year and a half of my life has been crazy. A lot of changes, ups and downs. But here I am stronger.
Can't wait to see what happens and where I will be a year from now.
So until then........... Live Life With No Regrets!
Funny how fast time goes by. When you stop and think of what you have been through in the last year.
Last year, at this time, I was going through some rough times.
My husband and I were in the process of seperating. I was conflicted at every turn. It was like he didn't want to move out but at the same time we couldn't work anything out. We needed the space.
Every time I was seeing someone or I went out on a date and he found out I would get this sarcastic attitude from him. Which made me NOT want to talk to him.
Now, here we are, a year later. We talk and hang out. We are still there for each other, But still living apart. (Seems to work better that way).
The other day we wer talking about this girl he had met on myspace and was meeting in person. A few days later when I talked to him he was telling me about her. That she was a nice person and was very pretty but was also telling me that he felt she was way out of his league and he probably wouldnt see her again. So I was being supportive and asking why he felt that way and that it could work he has to stop thinking that way.
And as our conversation was going on, I was thinking....Whatis wrong with this picture??? LOL
He's asking me why I wasnt up seeing my "boyfriend" and Im talking to him about seeing some other woman....strange - But true.
So we have come a long way.
He lets me come down and watch my shows that I have taped on the DVD and that come on certain nights and I cook supper and we do go out places (shopping, Eat, Movies). We are there for each other. We are and will alwasy be good friends.
I still love him and never want anything bad to happen to him. We just weren't meant to be together in that way I guess.
What I wanted and needed he just wasn't able or willing to give me. He was always happy with the same old status quo and I wasn't.
But we are both in a better place now.
Easily put - if you want to see what my life is like watch the movie "The Break up"
When I saw it I thought I was looking at my life. Right down to the end.
So, to wrap this up. The last year and a half of my life has been crazy. A lot of changes, ups and downs. But here I am stronger.
Can't wait to see what happens and where I will be a year from now.
So until then........... Live Life With No Regrets!
Wednesday, October 11, 2006
Soul Mate
Have you ever just met that certain someone that you knew was your soul mate?
You might not have known him or her for very long but you just knew. There was this feeling, this chemistry -- something that you have never felt and can't explain. You clicked and everything that happened before this person never existed?
Now, I’m not talking about just being friends, cousins, brother/sister. You can feel a connection with friends and or relatives but this is someone you just know you want to spend the rest of your life with -- a partner.
It's like you are connected to each other. Even though you are not together you still can sense when something is wrong. Come to find out days later that you were right.
Have you ever found your soul mate and because of uncontrollable circumstances you just couldn’t be together?
How do you over come that? How do you move on? How do you shake that feeling of incompleteness like something is missing?
I know you can love more than one person but this feeling is different. It is much stronger. It always seems to be there, no matter how much you run from it, hide from it, deny it. It always manages to creep back and strangle you.
Can you ever truly move on once you found and for whatever reason lost that soul mate?
Will it always be a struggle?
Will there always be that slight slimmer of sadness in your eye that is hidden so well no one can see or understand but you?
You might not have known him or her for very long but you just knew. There was this feeling, this chemistry -- something that you have never felt and can't explain. You clicked and everything that happened before this person never existed?
Now, I’m not talking about just being friends, cousins, brother/sister. You can feel a connection with friends and or relatives but this is someone you just know you want to spend the rest of your life with -- a partner.
It's like you are connected to each other. Even though you are not together you still can sense when something is wrong. Come to find out days later that you were right.
Have you ever found your soul mate and because of uncontrollable circumstances you just couldn’t be together?
How do you over come that? How do you move on? How do you shake that feeling of incompleteness like something is missing?
I know you can love more than one person but this feeling is different. It is much stronger. It always seems to be there, no matter how much you run from it, hide from it, deny it. It always manages to creep back and strangle you.
Can you ever truly move on once you found and for whatever reason lost that soul mate?
Will it always be a struggle?
Will there always be that slight slimmer of sadness in your eye that is hidden so well no one can see or understand but you?
Monday, October 09, 2006
Song of the Week for October 9th
How to Save A Life
- The Fray
Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
And pray to God he hears you
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
How to save a life
How to save a life
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
How to save a life
Check out the Song and Video here:
http://music.aol.com/artist/the-fray/710897/video?sem=1&ncid=AOLMUS00170000000009
- The Fray
Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
And pray to God he hears you
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
How to save a life
How to save a life
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
How to save a life
Check out the Song and Video here:
http://music.aol.com/artist/the-fray/710897/video?sem=1&ncid=AOLMUS00170000000009
Nature Walk
Saturday was such a beautiful day that I told Mike I didn't want to be stuck in the house. I mentioned going outside and maybe talking a walk.
Since he has woods in the back of his house we decided to go for a little nature walk and enjoy the fall colors.
It was nice. You could hear the rustling of the leaves. As the sun shined through the tops of the trees, in certain spots you could feel the sun warming you as it played peek-a-boo with the tree tops.
As Mike reminisced, he pointed out all his childhood play spots. The big grape vine, that looked worn out from years of fruit bearing. The big stone fence that had been altered from years of erosion.
I found big stone to just sit and take it all in. I closed my eyes and breathed in slowly and deeply. I could hear the birds chirping and the rustling of the leaves as a soft gentle breeze sifted through the air. I could just smell fall. You know that smell of leaves and the hint of winter that is just around the corner.
We continued on and Mike was still rambling on about something. I was only half paying attention to him as I drank in the scenery, savoring every bit of it. He often babbles on and on which is one of quirks that makes me laugh from time to time. (He just ever shuts up!) But I was enjoying it – the company, the scenery, the day. It was what I needed.
Continuing through the woods, we ended up coming out at the Concordia Club. We saw a big boat so we wandered over to look at it. Still walking along the tree line we ended up at the small clearing that use to overlook a pond but has been dried up for a few years now. This is when Mike got the brilliant idea of taking me down by the river.
He looked for the trail that lead there and finally found it. As we traveled further into the woods the trail seemed to have gotten more overgrown (which wasn't a problem) until the ground started to get more wetter.
Now, didn't have hiking boots on or even an old pair of shoes. What I was wearing was my nice pair of suede boots. I mentioned to him more than once, that the grounds were starting to get muddy and I didn't have the proper shoes. He kept insisting on going forward. That if I walked in the middle of the trail it was so muddy ----- WRONG!
It was just as muddy and by the time we got half way to where he thought the trail lead it was all overgrown and no trail in sight. By this time I was highly upset. I could feel a huge lump in my throat from holding back the tears. He tried leading us back to wear we came from when we came across NO Trespassing signs.
At this point my feet are wet and my boots are all muddy, I’m all hot and flustered and now all I could think of was some crazy guy coming out with a gun and shooting me because I was on his land. What made it even more upsetting is that I was basically walking by myself. Mike was so far ahead of me that there was a few times I almost lost sight of him.
I had all these thoughts and emotions running through my mind at this point. I’m wondering why I’m even bothering. This isn’t how I want to spend the rest of my life. And I don’t see where it is ever going to change.
I want to be the one to be taken care of, not have to be the maid, the mom to a 35 year old. And that is how I have been feeling. There is always some excuse or some interruption and it breaks my heart. I mean he doesn’t even drive. That puts a lot of pressure and ware and tear on me. I know he says he is trying. And he does. But just enough to say he is trying. I’ve been through this once already and I don’t want to go there again.
We finally made it through the woods and back to Concordia Club. I told him I had to sit down for a bit. So we found a nice sunny spot in the grass to sit. He had tried to pick some flowers for me (Which I did think was sweet) but I was so upset I didn’t even want to look at him. You know how you are so mad or upset you say things you don’t mean ….. I didn’t want to do that. So I thought it be best I just don’t say anything until I calmed down. Besides all I wanted to do was cry and I didn’t want him to see that either.
I know he felt bad which made me feel even worst because I know he was trying and I did have a wonderful time other that that one small little point of the whole hike. I just needed a little time to get over it. Once I calmed down I felt better. And he did end up making up for it.
OK, next time …… I Got My Rubber Boots…… Lets Go Hiking!
Since he has woods in the back of his house we decided to go for a little nature walk and enjoy the fall colors.
It was nice. You could hear the rustling of the leaves. As the sun shined through the tops of the trees, in certain spots you could feel the sun warming you as it played peek-a-boo with the tree tops.
As Mike reminisced, he pointed out all his childhood play spots. The big grape vine, that looked worn out from years of fruit bearing. The big stone fence that had been altered from years of erosion.
I found big stone to just sit and take it all in. I closed my eyes and breathed in slowly and deeply. I could hear the birds chirping and the rustling of the leaves as a soft gentle breeze sifted through the air. I could just smell fall. You know that smell of leaves and the hint of winter that is just around the corner.
We continued on and Mike was still rambling on about something. I was only half paying attention to him as I drank in the scenery, savoring every bit of it. He often babbles on and on which is one of quirks that makes me laugh from time to time. (He just ever shuts up!) But I was enjoying it – the company, the scenery, the day. It was what I needed.
Continuing through the woods, we ended up coming out at the Concordia Club. We saw a big boat so we wandered over to look at it. Still walking along the tree line we ended up at the small clearing that use to overlook a pond but has been dried up for a few years now. This is when Mike got the brilliant idea of taking me down by the river.
He looked for the trail that lead there and finally found it. As we traveled further into the woods the trail seemed to have gotten more overgrown (which wasn't a problem) until the ground started to get more wetter.
Now, didn't have hiking boots on or even an old pair of shoes. What I was wearing was my nice pair of suede boots. I mentioned to him more than once, that the grounds were starting to get muddy and I didn't have the proper shoes. He kept insisting on going forward. That if I walked in the middle of the trail it was so muddy ----- WRONG!
It was just as muddy and by the time we got half way to where he thought the trail lead it was all overgrown and no trail in sight. By this time I was highly upset. I could feel a huge lump in my throat from holding back the tears. He tried leading us back to wear we came from when we came across NO Trespassing signs.
At this point my feet are wet and my boots are all muddy, I’m all hot and flustered and now all I could think of was some crazy guy coming out with a gun and shooting me because I was on his land. What made it even more upsetting is that I was basically walking by myself. Mike was so far ahead of me that there was a few times I almost lost sight of him.
I had all these thoughts and emotions running through my mind at this point. I’m wondering why I’m even bothering. This isn’t how I want to spend the rest of my life. And I don’t see where it is ever going to change.
I want to be the one to be taken care of, not have to be the maid, the mom to a 35 year old. And that is how I have been feeling. There is always some excuse or some interruption and it breaks my heart. I mean he doesn’t even drive. That puts a lot of pressure and ware and tear on me. I know he says he is trying. And he does. But just enough to say he is trying. I’ve been through this once already and I don’t want to go there again.
We finally made it through the woods and back to Concordia Club. I told him I had to sit down for a bit. So we found a nice sunny spot in the grass to sit. He had tried to pick some flowers for me (Which I did think was sweet) but I was so upset I didn’t even want to look at him. You know how you are so mad or upset you say things you don’t mean ….. I didn’t want to do that. So I thought it be best I just don’t say anything until I calmed down. Besides all I wanted to do was cry and I didn’t want him to see that either.
I know he felt bad which made me feel even worst because I know he was trying and I did have a wonderful time other that that one small little point of the whole hike. I just needed a little time to get over it. Once I calmed down I felt better. And he did end up making up for it.
OK, next time …… I Got My Rubber Boots…… Lets Go Hiking!
Friday, October 06, 2006
State of Mind
Over the past year and a half my life has been pretty much like my own little soap opera.
For those of you who are close to me, you know what I'm talking about and all the details that come along with it. For those of you who don't know me or who are out of the loop in a quick nutshell: Men, relationships, conflicts, breakups, etc.
Things have been pretty calm lately which can only mean that something is brewing.
My mind and heart is constantly in conflict. Which is probably why I'm not getting much sleep.
I need to really get away, try to work things out and possibly think of "me" for a change and not everyone else. But I know that won't happen because that is not who I am.
So for now I just think and think and try to sort though things. I take everything in and file it and see how it all plays out.
I know I'm not making much sense right now. How can I -- I dont understand myself so I can't possibly think you could follow me.
Just bare with me. When I know then you will know too
For those of you who are close to me, you know what I'm talking about and all the details that come along with it. For those of you who don't know me or who are out of the loop in a quick nutshell: Men, relationships, conflicts, breakups, etc.
Things have been pretty calm lately which can only mean that something is brewing.
My mind and heart is constantly in conflict. Which is probably why I'm not getting much sleep.
I need to really get away, try to work things out and possibly think of "me" for a change and not everyone else. But I know that won't happen because that is not who I am.
So for now I just think and think and try to sort though things. I take everything in and file it and see how it all plays out.
I know I'm not making much sense right now. How can I -- I dont understand myself so I can't possibly think you could follow me.
Just bare with me. When I know then you will know too
Tracy's Song Pick of The Week
Missing You
- John Waite
Every time I think of you
I always catch my breath
And Im still standing here
And you're miles away
And Im wondering why you left
And theres a storm thats raging
Through my frozen heart tonight
I hear your name in certain circles
And it always makes me smile
I spend my time
Thinking about you
And its almost driving me wild
And theres a heart thats breaking
Down this long distance line tonight
I aint missing you at all
Since youve been gone Away
I aint missing you
No matter
What I might say
Theres a message
In the wild
And Im sending you
This signal tonight
You dont know
How desperate Ive become
And it looks like Im losing this fight
In your world
I have no meaning
Though Im trying hard
To understand
And its my heart thats breaking
Down this long distance line tonight
I aint missing you at all
Since youve been gone Away
I aint missing you
No matter
What my friends say
And theres a message that Im sending out
Like a telegraph to your soul
And if I cant bridge this distance
Stop this heartbreak overload
I aint missing you at all
Since youve been goneAway
I aint missing you
No matter
What my friends say
I aint missing you
I aint missing you
I keep lying to myself
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