Ugly Betty

Last night I watched a new show that is on ABC called “Ugly Betty”.

I was just watching it waiting for my most favorite show to come on (GreyÂ’s Anatomy). Ugly Betty had some funny moments in it, but as I sat on the couch watching it I realized, even though the character of Betty was mostly over exaggerated, it is very truthful as to how society perceives people and how they act towards them.

If you are not thin or beautiful they look down on you. You might not get that job or promotion you deserve, forget getting any special treatment or even acknowledged for that fact.

People tend not to be so helpful to those who are unattractive or shall we say not up to standard with the “ideal” or “dream” like standards.

Like being a size 2 will make you love anyone better than someone who is a size 18 – or even makes you any smarter or kinder. Lets face it the average size is a 14.

I have been in very similar situations like Ugly Betty. It is very hurtful. These people won’t even give you a chance because of the way you look not because of who you are. They are missing out – Big TimeJustybe…..just maybe, if they got to know you, just gave you that chance to know who you are inside, how you feel and what you think --- They would really like you. Maybe they would be attracted to you as a person and what you have to offer instead of what you look like on the outside that don’t make you the person you are.

For those of us who have truly been through this our whole lives and have experienced this heartache over and over again, we do tend to try a little harder to get that acceptance. Sometimes we go above and beyond what most people would do, or how most people would act, just because we want to be given that chance.

This can be good and bad at the same time. The good part being that given the chance we have all the love in the world to give. We tend to treat others as we would like to be treated and how we would love to feel. The bad part is that we get taken advantage of because of this. Because we are looking for that acceptance we are willing to please and that is a very easy target to take advantage of. It is a vicious cycle.

I tend to be very careful and protective of my inner-self because of that. I put on a strong and tough outside shell. Nothing bothers me, everything is just fine but that is so at all. IÂ’m hurting, IÂ’m sad, IÂ’m upset I just wonÂ’t allow myself to reveal that. Why is that? Because, people like to hang with happy people, fun people, not people who complain and bitch all the time.

Friday....Wooo Whoooo

Last night Mike asked me to go out to eat with him and hang out.

Said we don't do enough together.

I thought that was very sweet. So hopefully he will hold true to what he says.

We'll see......... Until my next Blog

Song of the Week

HINDER

"Lips Of An Angel"

Honey why are you calling me so late

It's kinda hard to talk right now

Honey why are you crying is everything okay

I gotta whisper cause I can't be too loud

Well, my girl's in the next room

Sometimes I wish she was you

I guess we never really moved on

It's really good to hear your voice saying my name

It sounds so sweet

Coming from the lips of an angel

Hearing those words it makes me weak

And I never wanna say goodbye

But girl you make it hard to be faithful

With the lips of an angel

It's funny that you're calling me tonight

And yes I've dreamt of you too

And does he know you're talking to me

Will it start a fight

No I don't think she has a clue

Well my girl's in the next room

Sometimes I wish she was you

I guess we never really moved on

It's really good to hear your voice saying my name

It sounds so sweet

Coming from the lips of an angel

Hearing those words it makes me weak

And I never wanna say goodbye

But girl you make it hard to be faithful

With the lips of an angel

It's really good to hear your voice saying my name

It sounds so sweet

Coming from the lips of an angel

Hearing those words it makes me weak

And I never wanna say goodbye

But girl you make it hard to be faithful

With the lips of an angel(And I never wanna say goodbye)

But girl you make it hard to be faithful

With the lips of an angel

Honey why are you calling me so late

What Hurts The Most.......

Just recently, I had someone extremely special in my life just drop out and disappear. No good byes, no explaination, Nothing.

Even though we didn't see each other and talking to each other had dropped drastically just knowing he was still there if and when I needed him was somehow comforting.

When I found myself down and out and no one else was able to make me smile. When no one else, no matter how hard they'd try could reach me, he always seems to be able to bring me back from the point of no return.

And now that he is gone it scares me. What happens if and when I get that way again? How will I bounce back? What if no one will be able to reach me and help pull me back?

Not that I don't understand. Because I do. And if that is what he feels he must do then I will respect that and honor his wishes. It's is more the way he went about doing what he did. He was a real important part of my life and I thought I was the same to him. He always told me that if he had decided to stop talking to me he wouldn't just disappear on me. He would let me know first. And guess what??..... he didn't and that sucks.

What Hurts The Most - Rascal Flatts

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house

That don't bother me

I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out

I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while

Even though going on with you gone still upsets me

There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok

But that's not what gets me

What hurts the most

Was being so close

And having so much to say

And watching you walk away

And never knowing

What could have been

And not seeing that loving you

Is what I was tryin' to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go

But I'm doin' It

It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone

Still Harder

Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret

But I know if I could do it over

I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart

That I left unspoken

What hurts the most

Is being so close

And having so much to say

And watching you walk away

And never knowing

What could have been

And not seeing that loving you

Is what I was trying to do

Wemple & Edicks

Sunday Mike and I went to the Wemple & Edicks Craft Fair.

It was a beautiful September day. A slight breeze kissed the air making the warm sunny September day very pleasant.

It was about two in the afternoon when we headed down tot he craft fair. Cars lined up on both sides of the road.

As we parked the car and walked over to the activities you counld hear the music and smell a bouqet of aromas fill the air.

You could smell the fried dough, popcorn, cotton candy and candy apples. Of course the apple cider and cider donuts lured you in.

Mike had to get his fried dough. So we walked over by the band and enjoyed the entertainment as I shared his fried dough.

He got all goofy and started to dance a little, which of course made me laugh. He even tried to get me to dance a bit to my reluctance, he did eventually got me to bump with him.

Then we walked around to the different vendors and checked out al the handmade crafts.

As we worked our way around to the beginning again, he got his decafe coffee and I went to get a half dozen cider donuts. Realizing afterwards the I was given a dozen donuts but still paid the half dozen price.

We walked up to Wemple & Edicks to get a cone. As usually there was a long line. So we were able to look around the store. Of course as in any line at a store they have the candy and all the little goodies that attract the childrens attention. I got this loud burst of "Oooh ooohh Ooohhhh!!!" from Mike. He was babbling something about wanting to get some kind of Bertie Bott's Jelly Beans. And he was practically begging me on hands and knees for me to buy them for him and he would pay me back.

I'm like what are you talking about????

Bertie Bott's Jelly Beans -- you know Harry Potter - the different flavors: Vomit, Bacon, Ear Wax, Grass, Booger etc...

Oy Vay! He is worst than a kid!

But a spoiled one at that! I got them for him.

He was acting all excited calling out all the candies that was on the counter that he liked: Tootsi Rolls, Button Candies etc.

I just rolled my eyes and laughed. (He is such a kid!)

So we get up the the counter and order our cones. He got maple walnut and I got chocolate. I paid at the cashier and off we went

It was a very pleasant day.

Road Trip

It's not often that I actually go out of town with Mike and of all things, during daylight hours!!!

Saturday I picked him up at 7 am and we headed down to Albany.
He had training for work that he had to go to by 9 am.

I dropped him off and headed to Clifton Park. I was actually looking for the Home Depot but couldn't seem to find it so I stopped at Borders book store and got lost in all the wonderful reading materials at my disposal.

I can just spend hours upon hours there. I actually prefer Barns and Noble better.

I made my selections and checked out. As I'm entering my car I hear my VM go off which I figured was Mike letting me know he was done with training. (I'm sure he would love for me to let you all know he works for a "oil company") I'm not getting into that right now.

Heading back home we planned to grab something quick to eat and on our way got stuck in the most horrific traffic back up ever!

Inching little by little. it seemed we weren't moving at all at times. And not only that but I had to go to the bathroom in the worst way!

I thought my bladder was going to explode! Mike mentioned he had to go too but in a different way. So I told him to go run in the woods (I had some paper napkins in the glove compartment) and meet me at the other end. The pace of the traffic he would probably beat me!

So we gabbed a bit and as I happened to look over there was this truck with a Gigantic Hippo on it. Big Smiling Hippo! It was for Party Rentals.

It seemed to be following us for a while. We pretended to have a race with the hippo. First the hippo was ahead then we pulled a head....back and fourth for a while. The things we do to keep ourselves amused!

How Rude! Move It!

Lately my patience has been "Nil" - "None" - "Non-existing"

I'm not saying I'm perfect but some people are just plain oblivious about what is happening around them.

Like for instance when you are in a grocery store and you are going up and down the isle and you come across people talking to each other smack dab in the middle of the isle. You just stand their. Maybe clear your throat to let them know you are there, maybe even say excuse me. But they just stand there and continue to talk or just look at you as if you are disrupting their important conversation about How Aunt Nelly got a little tipsy at the family reunion and ass over tea kettle into the pond.

Funny as it may be ...... "I Don't Care" ---- Get Out Of My Way!

Last night (Thursday) was pay day for me. So I get out of work at 5 pm and headed to the bank. (No Lines for a change)

I need to get a prescription filled so I head next doors to Price Chopper and there is a small line of about 3 people at the Pharmacy. I sigh.... (Lack of patience) but I stand there in line. Seemed to move rather quickly until (And wouldn't you know it) the person in front of me.

It was a Price Chopper employee at that too! It took her less that 5 minutes to give the pharmacist her prescription but she flapped her lips for another 5-10 minutes. As I'm trying patiently to wait by the sign that says to waite for your turn there to protect the other persons privacy.

What privacy? All she is doing is yacking about something that has nothing to do with any kind of medical problem (Mono, aids, syphilis, Crabs etc)

By now I'm starting to tap my foot getting antsier. Shifting my weight front one foot to another mumbling under my breath -- "Come on, Come on, Other people have things to do, places to go."

Still nothing. I let out a big sigh. Start looking around and making those faces. You know what I mean (Rolling eyes, half crooked mouth, then that COME ON Look. You know where your eye kinda bulge out you stretch your neck a bit to emphasis the urgency as your hand makes gestures)

Yeah, you know what I mean.

They keep yapping and laughing. I creep forward a bit. I'm invading your space. Better hurry before I lose it completely!

Finally after about 10 minutes it's my turn.

I walk up to the window and she asks if how she can help me.....
UUggghhhh, where do I Start? But I just smile and tell her I need a prescription filled.

And of all things....It was for my high blood pressure

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STRESS - That confusion created when ones mind overrides the bodies basic desire to choke the living shit out of some idiot asshole who desperately requires it!