EMO Kid

I'm trying real hard to keep it all together. But I'm an EMO kid.

What is an EMO Kid??? Short and simple -- I am an emotional thinker. I rely more on my feelings than my thoughts.

This SUCKS!

I never want to hurt anyone. I would like everyone to be happy (Yet I know I can't always make everyone happy). My heart usually says one thing when my head is SCREAMING another.

Which is why I am usually the one who ends up hurt and miserable.

I'm a mixed type. I like to have fun and be around others, but to a certain point.
I prefer a small gathering of some good friends as opposed to a hug party filled with strangers.

And as much as I enjoy the company of others, Most of the time I would rather spend a quiet evening home, cuddled on the couch or sitting on the porch gazing at the stars.

The little things mean the most to me which in turn also means the little things can bother me the most too.

I really do think I expect way too much from others and have been told before that I am never happy.

This is a fault of mine (I do believe it comes from my mother) I always try to see the best in people. But I expect the best from them. I, for the most part, give my all. So in return I expect the best from others. Especially when I know and can see that have such great potential.

I hate to see people waste their lives when they can be so much more and do so much more.

I'm always striving for better, which tends to be yet another fault of mine.

See now I seem to be rambling not sure where Im going with this.
I guess maybe I just needed to things out so I can see them in front of me and just go from there.

I've got issues as well as anyone else. But I can't help the way I feel.

I guess what it comes down to is that I must Be true to myself. I know what I want, what makes me happy, what I can live with and deal with and what I wont live with or deal with.

As much as I think of others I must think of myself first and make sure I am happy.

I want to be Happy!