Now What?

How does someone go from being all loving and caring, kissing and hugging you, telling you he loves you, not giving any sign of anything else then the next day telling you he doesn't want anything to do with you, don't want to see you or talk to you ever again???

I understand what I did wasn't right and I hurt him. Im very sorry for that. But I also found something out that he seemed to neglect to tell me.

I was told that he was feeling that he just wasn't "feeling it" with me and didn't know how to tell me. Not sure yet quiet when this was said. But even still......why didn't he just say something to me. Why tell me all these lies when he knew he didn't want to be with me. Why make me feel extremely bad.

I know things between us were getting distant but after that first split I was really starting to fall hard for him. But I just didn't seem to feel him feeling the same towards me. There was excuses of alot being on him mind. Is this when all this was said or was it more recent I dont know. I know it isn't an excuse for what I did but I had to figure out what my true feelings were. But when I did it was way to late.

I'm very hurt. But at the same time I'm also kinda pissed. I don't think he relaly wanted to be with me and we was just leading me on. I have done alot for him. The way he ended it was really uncalled for. It was nasty and immature. Maybe someday things will change.

I do miss him. but nothing I can do.

So now what is in store for me?

Deep Breath...... day by day..... I do good at times but then I seem to break down. Have to keep busy and keep my mind busy. That helps so much.

when I have too much time I think and it hurts.

I welcome any distraction!