New Outlook

I've been so down lately. Trying to fight it. Wasn't sure if it was the winter blues or some hormonal imbalance.

It just seems like when everything is going well and I'm as happy as can be it all comes crashing down. I try to keep my head up but more often then not, does it feel like I'm drowning.

I am the type of person that is always concerned about the people around me. Mostly my family and friends. I will do whatever it takes to make them happy and cheer them up. ANd in return not getting the same back. It's finally taking it's toll on me. I want to be there for others and I love doing things to make them happy and that I know they would like. But it isn't making me happy anymore. And if I no one if willing to take care of me from time to time then I have to do it myself.

I've come to the conclusion that I must put myself first in what I want nad what will make me happy. Seems like no one else is thinking of that for me.

And someday there will be someone there who is willing and wants to make me happy.

Until then I have a new outlook on life to enjoy and do what it takes for me and me alone to have a smile on my face and be happy with how I am living and what I am doing.