Break Down

Holidays are over with. Things are starting to settle down and get back into a routine. I find myself even more down and out that I was during the Holidays.

I do know I have been extremely stressed and the thought of being able to get away and relax and be pampered keeps crossing my mind. If only I had somewhere to go or money to do it.

I've been so concerened about everyone and everything else around me that I'm getting burned out. That has to be the reason of why I am feeling the way I am. I feel like I'm drowning. I try to be happy but inside I'm just dying. I feel like I want to cry all the time and when I'm alone I usually do.

It could also be that it is winter and I can't be outside as much as I would like. I'm feeling trapped and confined.

I guess I'm not as strong as I thought I was. I need someone to take care of me. Take over and control of the wheel for a while. Sounds crazy, I know. But I need a break!!!

I was just told today that it looked like I was going to have a nervous break down.

Wish I had something better to write about. More exciting, more fun. But right now I don't.